Good morning! Well it was yet another long nite of pain! I am getting sick of this! Ever since my surgery, the spasiticity in my leg's gets worse every day. I take m meds and hope for the best! Sadly, it doesn't seem to help much. Well I had to get my complaing down and out of the way!
Today I get to go see a movie!! Terrance and his little lady Kelsey are going to a movie today and they are taking me with them! I believe we are going to see Skyfall, but I'm not sure and I really don't care! I'm just happy to be going to a movie! I'll bet it's been close to two years since I 've been to a movie! So sad that I get so excited to go out as a third wheel with 15 yr old son!! lol
Lets see what else has happened over the last month. My nephews, Billy and Bryan, have both bought their own places! Billy will be movie in to his, a trailer in Lake Superior Estates, in February. Bryan will be home this weekend and start moving to his house this weekend. Bryan bought his house in Pickford. So exciting! I am very proud of both of them!
My other two nephews are doing well too! Josh is a hard worker! He is working for his dad, I mean with his dad! My brother-in-law, Ken, owns Enterprise Vending in St. Ignace. It's a family business. They are very hard workers!
Deb and Ken's son, Cyleb, goes to MNU, for Pre-law! We are going to have a lawyer in the family! I am very proud of them! We are so lucky to have such a hard working family!!
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Friday, November 30, 2012
End of November
I am so sorry that I have not posted in a month! Wow! Time sure flies by, even when you don't really have a life! I have spent the last month working, sleeping, watching tv. Really not doing much at all. I haven't been feeling very good. Winter always kicks up my MS. I am just lucky to still be working. This time last year I was off work for 3 1/2 months. It was a very hard time for us. WE had our electric, gas and water all shut off (at least it wasn't all at the same time!). It was a slim winter! I was able to get everything back on, Thanks to some great people in the community. You know who you are!
This winter we are slightly better, money-wise, because I have been able to keep my bills paid. Well paid better than last year! LOL Anyways, lets see what all has happened this month.
Taylor got full time in Admitting in the hospital! Terrance has started Basketball practice!! I am down 70 pounds now!! That's 3 great things for all of us! Thank you Lord!! We needed some good news. He always provides!
Terrance's first home game is next Tuesday, Dec 4 @ 6:00 vs Alpena. Please come out to cheer on the Boys Varsity Basketball Team! We look forward to seeing you all there.
Taylor started her full-time schedule last week. She is excited to know that she will always have a full paycheck now. Well I know you have been waiting for me to update you all and I had hoped this would be longer, but I am not feeling. It's time for me to go home. I stayed after work so I could update this on a real computer. It's a lot easier typing on a real keyboard then it is on my tablet! I hope everyone is doing great. I will try very hard to keep up my blog again. I feel like I have alot to share, and yet, I haven't been.
Have a great weekend!
This winter we are slightly better, money-wise, because I have been able to keep my bills paid. Well paid better than last year! LOL Anyways, lets see what all has happened this month.
Taylor got full time in Admitting in the hospital! Terrance has started Basketball practice!! I am down 70 pounds now!! That's 3 great things for all of us! Thank you Lord!! We needed some good news. He always provides!
Terrance's first home game is next Tuesday, Dec 4 @ 6:00 vs Alpena. Please come out to cheer on the Boys Varsity Basketball Team! We look forward to seeing you all there.
Taylor started her full-time schedule last week. She is excited to know that she will always have a full paycheck now. Well I know you have been waiting for me to update you all and I had hoped this would be longer, but I am not feeling. It's time for me to go home. I stayed after work so I could update this on a real computer. It's a lot easier typing on a real keyboard then it is on my tablet! I hope everyone is doing great. I will try very hard to keep up my blog again. I feel like I have alot to share, and yet, I haven't been.
Have a great weekend!
Friday, October 26, 2012
Miss me?
Sorry I have'nt been around. I have not been feeling very well the past couple of weeks. I haven't been losing weight. I have had some killer acid reflex that wakes me up in the middle of the night. I have been going crazy with this dog and the cats. I just feel like i'm at the end of my rope right now. I need to be working out and I haven't felt good enough to do it. Terrance and I did rearrange the furniture in the livingroom. I stayed awake all weekend. Which is a big accomplishment for me. Hopefully this weekend I will get more done. I will post again this weekend. I promise!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Tuesday
Well it's been almost a week since i've posted on here. Sorry about that. I haven't been feeling too hot lately. I get up and go to work but that is all I seem to want to do. I have to get out of this funk! I'm not sure why I am in it. Nothing has changed lately in my life. Same shit different day, as usual.
Anyways, my Dad graduates from radiation on Thursday this week!! I am so proud of him! He has been losing his hair and throwing up but he is pressing on! He is a strong person. My mom is damn strong too! She is pulling him through this, even when he gets upset and crabby. They are two of the strongest people I
know.
It's a short post I know, but That's all I have for now. Take care all and hug your loved ones.
Anyways, my Dad graduates from radiation on Thursday this week!! I am so proud of him! He has been losing his hair and throwing up but he is pressing on! He is a strong person. My mom is damn strong too! She is pulling him through this, even when he gets upset and crabby. They are two of the strongest people I
know.
It's a short post I know, but That's all I have for now. Take care all and hug your loved ones.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
How exciting!!
I am very excited!! I just stood on the scale and 259!!! I'm under 260! Woot woot! It,s been 9 weeks since surgery and down 40 pounds!! That's 59 since I started the process! It is so exciting to see the changes that I am going thru week after week. I didn't think about taking my measurements until the end of Sept, but i will post the inches lost since then next week. i only want to measure every two weeks. If I do it too soon and don't lose much, I might get disappointed. I don't want to do anything that might slow down my process.
If you are looking for something to do tomorrow night stop by the athletic field and watch the Blue Devils JV team. We start ! Help me cheer on #82 and the rest of the Blue Devils. You know I will be there screaming! I mean cheering!
Have a good night and a great tomorrow!
If you are looking for something to do tomorrow night stop by the athletic field and watch the Blue Devils JV team. We start ! Help me cheer on #82 and the rest of the Blue Devils. You know I will be there screaming! I mean cheering!
Have a good night and a great tomorrow!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
262
I know it's still a big number. But it's a helluva lot smaller than 315. That,s where I was 9 months ago. I haven't seen 262 in at least 10 years! Do it might be a big number still, but I'm happy to see it! By this time next week, I shouldbe under 260! Woohoo! It's exciting to see the changes in my body. I am still wearing clothes from before I had to take tucks in the pants! They are still too big but I refuse to buy new clothes yet! I have some smaller ones somewhere in this house, just have to find them.
Thanks to everyone who is still reading my blog. I know I have really fallen behind on posting on here. So thanks for checking for new posts. I will try to post more often.
Well I have stuff I wanted to do today so I am going to try to get something done before I fall back to sleep again.
Thanks to everyone who is still reading my blog. I know I have really fallen behind on posting on here. So thanks for checking for new posts. I will try to post more often.
Well I have stuff I wanted to do today so I am going to try to get something done before I fall back to sleep again.
Blind date part #2
I had to finish it in a different post because I couldn't get to the spot I had stopped at so I could finish my story!
So he takes me back to my van and says Hey this was fun we should do this again. To which I say, Ok. Cause I'm a chicken! He leans in to kiss me goodbye and I quickly turn my head! He ended up catching my cheek. Felt like I got hit in the face with a fish!! Ewww.
I headed downtown to meet up with everyone who was waiting at the Frog for me. He tried to get a hold of me again, but I quickly ignored him and deleted him. Never again!! No blind dates for this girl!
So he takes me back to my van and says Hey this was fun we should do this again. To which I say, Ok. Cause I'm a chicken! He leans in to kiss me goodbye and I quickly turn my head! He ended up catching my cheek. Felt like I got hit in the face with a fish!! Ewww.
I headed downtown to meet up with everyone who was waiting at the Frog for me. He tried to get a hold of me again, but I quickly ignored him and deleted him. Never again!! No blind dates for this girl!
Blind date
I want to apologize for any and all typos in my blog. I do know that I have some. Sadly, trying to fix them when typing on my tablet is very frustrating. That's why I give up trying to fix them. I wouldn't have a blog at all if I kept trying to fix them. I would have thrown this tablet against a wall! It's great so I can play games and stuff, but trying to get to the right place to fix typos is hard! It's touch screen and the cursor never goes where I want to!
I am very hapy to report that my dad has been going to his radiation!! He has also been making it to his chemo and to get his fluids! I am so proud of him! A couple of weeks ago he wasn't feeling very well and said he was done going. That they are putting too many chemicals in his little body! For those of you who don't know, my Daddy is only 100 pounds! I know that's hard to believe, especially if you know my sisters and I. We are all big girls! Well, Lisa isn't anymore. She has lost 113 pounds. I won't be next year!
So I have been trying to think of what stories I can share on here. I have quite a few that are pretty funny. But I don't want to type anything that will come back to haunt my kids!! LOL That cuts out alot of them! I also don't want to post anything to upset my family. There goes another good chunk of them!! That doesn't leave much!!
Ok I think I have one. Quite a few years ago, I was big into Yahoo chat rooms. I have met a few people from them as well. A few of them I still "talk" to as well. I have met some good people. That being said, I have met some that I wish I hadn't! So I started talking to this guy from downstate, I really can't remember his name now. Let's call him Joe. Anyways, Joe and I had chatted for a couple of months. We seemed to have a lot in common, movies, books, music, religious & political views, dancing. Yeah, I said it, dancing! I know it might not look like it, but I can cut a rugwhen I want to. Course it might not be pretty, but I do love to dance!
Ok back to my story. So Joe tells me that he has to come up here for work. He was an insurance adjuster. He had to come up here and wanted to take me out. I agreed to dinner and then downtown for drinks and dancing. An important part to the story is, I had never seen him. He didn't have a picture. I had a picture on my profile and never lied about myself. I didn't think he was going to look exactly how he described, but I didn't know how far off his description was going to be!
I met him at the Comfort Inn. I gotta tell ya, I looked GOOD to!! I walked down the hall to his room, knocked on the door, and there he was. He said he was 6'2", more like 5' 7". He said he was 225 pounds, more like 325. He said he had brown hair, he forgot to mention the comb over! I know, I know, don't be so shallow! I mean, I am a big girl, so don't knock it that he's a big boy. But I do! I mean, I have a type. Just like everyone else. It happens to be tall and skinny He was neither! But, I cannot be mean, to his face. I have to go through with the date.
He tries to invite me into his room. Ahh NO! I told him we should get going to dinner. All the time trying to come up with a plan to get out of the date. Did I mention that he had his pants pulled up to his chest with his dress shirt tucked into them? He looked like an old college professor. Not a hot one either! Now I know I have no business making fun of the way he dressed when everyone knows that I dress like crap lately. But back then, I dressed really nice. I wasn't as big as I was recently. I had some cute clothes. I mean, I Looked GOOD!!
Ok back to the story...So we went to get in his truck to drive to Studebakers. He wanted to take me to the Ojibway but I really didn't want anyone to see me! So I suggested Studebakers. On the way there I stared telling him about my sick son. How he had been throwing up all night. That my Mom was babysitting him while I was out but she really doesn't like to watch him when he's sick! We get toStudebaker and get seated. I ordered a salad, he ordered a steak dinner. I knew I was getting out as fast I can, so I didn't want to spend a bunch of his money. I'm not that mean! while we are waiting for our food, he starts talking about how exciting it was that we met on the internet. He's LOUD!! I know, so am I, but not when it's something embarrasing!! The waitresses behind us were laughing! I just wanted to crawl under the table!
Our food comes, he continues to talk while he is eating, food falling all down the front of him. I couldn't even make eye contact. What a mess! I have to get out of here! He's talking about going dancing, I'm talking about calling my mother to see how my son is in case I have to go get him! When dinner is over, I go to the payphone to call Jules. No I didn't have a cell phone. Jules was my partner in crime back then. We had loads of fun! But that's more stories for later. So I call Jules, "Help! Help!" she starts laughing and asking how its going. She was downtown at The Frog, waiting for us to come down after dinner. There were a few of our friends hanging out with her, waiting to meet him. "It's awful!" I tell her. She wants to know if we are coming to go dancing, I'm telling her I'll be coming, without him! I tell her my escape plan and to come looking for me if I don't show up soon.
I head back to the table and tell him I can't go dancing, I have to go home. Its at this point that I'm thinking he's figured out that I really don't like him and am trying to ditch him! He leaves the table to go call his daughter and he's gone for so long that I start to think that he's ditching me with the bill! I have enough money to cover my salad but not his steak dinner! I start to panic, but he finally comes back to the table! That was the only time I was glad to see him! So he drives me back to the Comfort Inn, where my car is
Monday, September 24, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
Another Monday. Man I hate Mondays. Well at least I didn't sleep all weekend. Saturday I went to T's football game. That was fun. They won!! That always makes it really fun! T did a great job! I am so proud of him!! He is such hard worker! In school and on the field.
Taylor and her roommate/best friend Carrie came with me. We got rained on. It was something, with all 3 of us huddling under one umbrella! But we did. We had fun too!!
I fell asleep early yesterday, right after I took my pain meds. Then about 3 hours later I woke up in awful pain. Not the usual pain. This time it was in my throat! Apparently I had fallen asleep too soon after taking my meds. One of them didn't go down. It was stuck in my throat, burning it. it caused some awful heartburn. I started coughing and that made me cough it back up. Yuck yuck yuck! There's nothing quite like the taste of 3 hours old medication that disolved in your throat!! It tasted like I had chewed it up! It burned! Alot! It was awful. I had to keep my rinsing my mouth out with water. Then I ate a sugar free popsicle and it finally went away.
Now I'm starting to fall asleep. Its time to go back to sleep. Take care everyone. Have great day!!
Taylor and her roommate/best friend Carrie came with me. We got rained on. It was something, with all 3 of us huddling under one umbrella! But we did. We had fun too!!
I fell asleep early yesterday, right after I took my pain meds. Then about 3 hours later I woke up in awful pain. Not the usual pain. This time it was in my throat! Apparently I had fallen asleep too soon after taking my meds. One of them didn't go down. It was stuck in my throat, burning it. it caused some awful heartburn. I started coughing and that made me cough it back up. Yuck yuck yuck! There's nothing quite like the taste of 3 hours old medication that disolved in your throat!! It tasted like I had chewed it up! It burned! Alot! It was awful. I had to keep my rinsing my mouth out with water. Then I ate a sugar free popsicle and it finally went away.
Now I'm starting to fall asleep. Its time to go back to sleep. Take care everyone. Have great day!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
9/18/12
Last night on my way home my van sounded like it was going to die. It was just fine on the way to work. No idea what happened while it was parked at work. Maybe it's just tired of driving my ass around! Lol I hope it feels better today. I have to take T to the dentist in Pickford today.
Boy is it cold today! I took Bailey out and brrrrrrr! I think I am finally starting to get cold! That is one of the things that I couldn't wait for when I started to lose the weight! Lisa said she is always cold. Wow. Won't that be nice?? I have been having hot flashes for ten years! I would rather be cold. I can put clothes on. When your completely overheated your just stuck. There's only so many clothes you can take off! Especially at work!
Tomorrow it will be seven weeks since I had surgery. I am down 32 pounds since surgery. When I started this process in January, I weighed 315 pounds. Holy shit, huh? If it surprisesyou, imagine I felt! I am now down to 268. That's 47 pounds. I like that number better! Surprisingly, that has only been one pants size. You know your fat when.....LOL
Sadly my family suffered a loss last week. My Aunt Linda passed away unexpectedly. She was my Daddy's only sister. My cousins will be bringing her ashes up so she can be buried next to her husband, Jim. Thankfully, they did get to speak one last time. She called to talk to Dad last week to see how his chemo and radiation is going. It's almost like she knew something was going to happen. Rest in Peace Aunt Linda. You will be missed.
Have a great day everyone and don't forget to tell your family you love them.
Boy is it cold today! I took Bailey out and brrrrrrr! I think I am finally starting to get cold! That is one of the things that I couldn't wait for when I started to lose the weight! Lisa said she is always cold. Wow. Won't that be nice?? I have been having hot flashes for ten years! I would rather be cold. I can put clothes on. When your completely overheated your just stuck. There's only so many clothes you can take off! Especially at work!
Tomorrow it will be seven weeks since I had surgery. I am down 32 pounds since surgery. When I started this process in January, I weighed 315 pounds. Holy shit, huh? If it surprisesyou, imagine I felt! I am now down to 268. That's 47 pounds. I like that number better! Surprisingly, that has only been one pants size. You know your fat when.....LOL
Sadly my family suffered a loss last week. My Aunt Linda passed away unexpectedly. She was my Daddy's only sister. My cousins will be bringing her ashes up so she can be buried next to her husband, Jim. Thankfully, they did get to speak one last time. She called to talk to Dad last week to see how his chemo and radiation is going. It's almost like she knew something was going to happen. Rest in Peace Aunt Linda. You will be missed.
Have a great day everyone and don't forget to tell your family you love them.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Mon, Sept 17, 2012
Happy Monday! Yeah, don't holler. I don't really mean it. I hate Mondays too. I have been awake since 4:30. That's when Bailey decided it was time for me to wake up. I actually fell asleep on the couch, which is rare, and she got on the couch and pushed me off. Either she really needed to go outside or she was tired of me sleeping in her bed!
So I swept the bathroom and kitchen then did a load of laundry. Then when I went in the kitchen what did I see? HORNETS!!! Again!! What the hell?! Three of them. So I stood, frozen, with a rolled up newspaper. I thought about killing them, grabbed the newspaper and everything. But then my fear took over. They are moving so fast! They aren't supposed to move that fast, this early in the morning! One tried to sting T when he came downstairs. I got him to kill that one but there is still 2 more buzzing around somewhere. Needless to say I will be showering and getting the hell out of here soon! I hope all of these animals earn their keep and kill the other two while I'm gone!
So it was another shitty weekend. I missed T's football game on Saturday. I was so sore, tired, depressed, just everything wrong. I so hate that. I hope this exasperation of my MS goes away soon. The pain in my legs is almost too much to take. I have so many things to do. So many things I WANT to do. I don't have time for this bullshit any longer! I am taking a stand this week! Come hell or high water, I will get this f&%king house cleaned and these extra animals out!
So I swept the bathroom and kitchen then did a load of laundry. Then when I went in the kitchen what did I see? HORNETS!!! Again!! What the hell?! Three of them. So I stood, frozen, with a rolled up newspaper. I thought about killing them, grabbed the newspaper and everything. But then my fear took over. They are moving so fast! They aren't supposed to move that fast, this early in the morning! One tried to sting T when he came downstairs. I got him to kill that one but there is still 2 more buzzing around somewhere. Needless to say I will be showering and getting the hell out of here soon! I hope all of these animals earn their keep and kill the other two while I'm gone!
So it was another shitty weekend. I missed T's football game on Saturday. I was so sore, tired, depressed, just everything wrong. I so hate that. I hope this exasperation of my MS goes away soon. The pain in my legs is almost too much to take. I have so many things to do. So many things I WANT to do. I don't have time for this bullshit any longer! I am taking a stand this week! Come hell or high water, I will get this f&%king house cleaned and these extra animals out!
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Thursday, Sept 13, 2012
So the lucky number for the week is 31, since that is how much weight I have lost. Lol I just weighed myself again. I am always afraid it was a fluke when I weighed myself last. So I always check it again the next day. Just want to be sure!! :)
The next thing I have to learn is how to post pictures on this. I only have one before picture (ok, I know I have more but who wants to see anymore than one before picture!) and I have one after picture so far. Jenn thinks we should take them every week but I say once a month. Plus I need more time to find some of my smaller clothes! If I still have them. I !can't seem to locate more than a few pieces. Makes me wonder if I got frustrated and threw them away before! I might have. Lord knows I wouldn't remember!!
When I was trying to figure out what to call my blog I was looking up synonyms for shrink. I found a few I liked but decided I should name it the same thing I had always planned on naming my book. But here are a few other things I thought would be good:
Oh yeah one more thing first. I thought it was pretty funny that I was start looking for names for the blog, I think shrink, and of course the first thing that shows up on the synonym website is psychiatrist, head-shrinker! Ha ha ha Anyone that knows me knows that I should probably be speaking to a head shrinker instead of a body shrinker!!
Now back to what I was talking about. Other names for the blog:
Withering Carla
Cringing Carla - Lol I have enough things in my life that make me cringe!
Abbreviated Carla - Thats CAR... um no
Slenderized! - Made me think of tenderize....um no
Condensed Carla - Just add water Lol
Repressed Carla? Lots in my life I have Repressed!
Quail? I thought that was a bird??
Shortened Carla - aww yeah, I'm short enough!
Funk? Ha ha I can get funky, don't wanna be funky. Too many meanings to that word
Carla - The Abridged Version
The next thing I have to learn is how to post pictures on this. I only have one before picture (ok, I know I have more but who wants to see anymore than one before picture!) and I have one after picture so far. Jenn thinks we should take them every week but I say once a month. Plus I need more time to find some of my smaller clothes! If I still have them. I !can't seem to locate more than a few pieces. Makes me wonder if I got frustrated and threw them away before! I might have. Lord knows I wouldn't remember!!
When I was trying to figure out what to call my blog I was looking up synonyms for shrink. I found a few I liked but decided I should name it the same thing I had always planned on naming my book. But here are a few other things I thought would be good:
Oh yeah one more thing first. I thought it was pretty funny that I was start looking for names for the blog, I think shrink, and of course the first thing that shows up on the synonym website is psychiatrist, head-shrinker! Ha ha ha Anyone that knows me knows that I should probably be speaking to a head shrinker instead of a body shrinker!!
Now back to what I was talking about. Other names for the blog:
Withering Carla
Cringing Carla - Lol I have enough things in my life that make me cringe!
Abbreviated Carla - Thats CAR... um no
Slenderized! - Made me think of tenderize....um no
Condensed Carla - Just add water Lol
Repressed Carla? Lots in my life I have Repressed!
Quail? I thought that was a bird??
Shortened Carla - aww yeah, I'm short enough!
Funk? Ha ha I can get funky, don't wanna be funky. Too many meanings to that word
Carla - The Abridged Version
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
31 31 31 31 31
I finally did it!! I broke 270!! I am now 269!! That means I am down 31 pounds! It will be 5 weeks on Wednesday. It seems longer. I wish it would fall off me faster. But it didn't take me a couple of months to get this size. It took years. So I should be happy if I can get rid of it in a year or two. But, it should fall off me faster!!! :)
Now if I can just find the energy to exercise I know it will fall off me faster. But I am still tired most of the time. Damn MS! It tries so hard to rob me of everything. My body, my energy, my job, my life. I fight everyday just to get up in
the morning. Then to go to work. Everyday, fight, fight, fight. It's not fair. It's hard enough to be a single mom but then to fight my own body? It's stupid!
Ok enough with the boo hoo's. It's too depressing. So school is going well for T so far. Tay is busy with work. Daddy is doing his chemo and radiation. Mom is busy trying to take care of the house and daddy. Life continues, even if your depressed.
Well it's time to try to fall asleep. I promise to be in a better mood next time. Have a great night!
Sept 11, 2012
My thoughts always go to 2001 and all of the families that lost love ones when I write Sept 11. It also makes one think of the families that are still losing love ones. Thank you to all of the men and women that fight for our country everyday. My thoughts and prayers go out to all of them.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Sept 10, 2012
I was late to work today. That's how my day started. Ever since I had the surgery done my legs have been driving me crazy! I have spasaticity (sp?) and it mainly hits me in my legs. It drives me nuts!!! I can't sit still, I can't get comfortable, I have to flex my toes, ankles and legs all the time! It's like they are trying to jump out of my skin! So now they are bothering me every night. Which means I don't sleep.
I need to learn to be more productive. If I am going to be awake anuways, I should clean my kitchen, do some laundry, or whatever else needs to be done. I am sitting here bouncing my legs up and down. Otherwise I will go crazy!!
Tomorrow nite I am starting a walking regimen. I am not losing weight fast enough! Wednesday it will be 6 weeks since my surgery so now I can do more. My doc wanted me to wait 6 weeks because of my MS. So now I can workout and not worry.
My goal is to start running eventually. I need to find a cheap treadmill so I can walk/run in the house in the winter. If anybody knows someone that has one for sale, please let m know. I really need it. Then after football is over, T and I are going to start working out. I am hoping to get Tay involved too.
Tomorrow night my new favorite show is on Chicago Trauma (10 pm Tues @natgeo). I watched the first nite of the show and it's great! The first show had a guy that was just left on a gurney. When the nurse got him to the trauma ER room they started doing CPR. The trauma doc had them crack open his chest and try massaging his heart. That is when they found out that he had been stabbed in the upper thigh and had bled out. They brought him back to life! He had almost NO blood in his heart and they brought him back! It's a great show.
I still need to find a home for Bailey the dog, George the Cat, Bella the cat nd Georgia the cat. I still have to many animals! I love them all but they have to go! If anyone knows someone who would like any of them, please give them my number, 635.8140
I need to learn to be more productive. If I am going to be awake anuways, I should clean my kitchen, do some laundry, or whatever else needs to be done. I am sitting here bouncing my legs up and down. Otherwise I will go crazy!!
Tomorrow nite I am starting a walking regimen. I am not losing weight fast enough! Wednesday it will be 6 weeks since my surgery so now I can do more. My doc wanted me to wait 6 weeks because of my MS. So now I can workout and not worry.
My goal is to start running eventually. I need to find a cheap treadmill so I can walk/run in the house in the winter. If anybody knows someone that has one for sale, please let m know. I really need it. Then after football is over, T and I are going to start working out. I am hoping to get Tay involved too.
Tomorrow night my new favorite show is on Chicago Trauma (10 pm Tues @natgeo). I watched the first nite of the show and it's great! The first show had a guy that was just left on a gurney. When the nurse got him to the trauma ER room they started doing CPR. The trauma doc had them crack open his chest and try massaging his heart. That is when they found out that he had been stabbed in the upper thigh and had bled out. They brought him back to life! He had almost NO blood in his heart and they brought him back! It's a great show.
I still need to find a home for Bailey the dog, George the Cat, Bella the cat nd Georgia the cat. I still have to many animals! I love them all but they have to go! If anyone knows someone who would like any of them, please give them my number, 635.8140
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Sun, Sept 9, 2012
Another weekend over. I actually didn't sleep all weekend, just today! Terrance and I hit a couple garage sales yesterday afternoon. We didn't go until late so didn't get much but it was fun. We ran into the Avon lady's garage sale. She lives over by the Middle school and we used to go to her sale every year with my Grandma. We had to go, it reminded me of her. I miss her. We used to share Nora Roberts books. When she passed away my uncle got everything and he just threw stuff away. I wished I had gotten her books. We shared a love of reading. Everyone knows I have a collection of books and then I am keeping them so I can have a library one day.
My father had a very hard week last week. He was feeling very sick from all of the stuff they have been putting in his body because of the cancer. It was a hard week for my mother too. Thankfully he is feeling better now so he has decided to go back to radiation on Monday. Thank you Lord!! On Friday he had decided to give up and given in because he felt so bad. I am so glad that he feels better and changed his mind!
Well I know this is short, but you guys are getting used to them being short now! Have a great week and a great tomorrow!
My father had a very hard week last week. He was feeling very sick from all of the stuff they have been putting in his body because of the cancer. It was a hard week for my mother too. Thankfully he is feeling better now so he has decided to go back to radiation on Monday. Thank you Lord!! On Friday he had decided to give up and given in because he felt so bad. I am so glad that he feels better and changed his mind!
Well I know this is short, but you guys are getting used to them being short now! Have a great week and a great tomorrow!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Wed, Sept 5, 2012
I'm trying to type this to get my mind off my legs and my left arm/hand. My stupid spacitisity from the MS is kicking my ass right now. I know sometimes it looks funny when it makes me bouncy but it really does hurt! It drives me crazy. When it takes so long to stop, even when I took my pills! I have to keep kicking them or moving them or walking around. My arm keeps jerking out to the left. It's awful!
I just wish it would stop. I hate crying. It makes the dog stare at me and want to get on my lap. My cat Jonesy is pretty used to it. I can sit here bouncing my leg for an hour and he will still sit on my lap.
I watched the best show last nite, Chicago Trauma on NatGeo. It is on Tuesday nites at 10. Everyone should watch it. I like it because its real people, real patients, real doctors. It is set in the hospital in Cook County, Chicago. They said they had more people that died fromviolence in Cook County last year than peple that died in Afganistan! That's crazy!
In last nites episode they find a stabbing victim that was just left on a gurney by his friends. When they start CPR the trauma surgeon says did we ever have vitals? When he hears No, they crack the patients chest with the rib spreader and find out that he has almost NO blood in his heart! He has them keep giving the patient blood and you literally watch his heart start pumping again! It's crazy!
You have to watch it! It's great!
Ok seriously, how much longer till my meds kick in? Awwwwwwwww! I hate this!
Great, now the dog has some serious gas going on! What else is gonna happen tonite??
I just wish it would stop. I hate crying. It makes the dog stare at me and want to get on my lap. My cat Jonesy is pretty used to it. I can sit here bouncing my leg for an hour and he will still sit on my lap.
I watched the best show last nite, Chicago Trauma on NatGeo. It is on Tuesday nites at 10. Everyone should watch it. I like it because its real people, real patients, real doctors. It is set in the hospital in Cook County, Chicago. They said they had more people that died fromviolence in Cook County last year than peple that died in Afganistan! That's crazy!
In last nites episode they find a stabbing victim that was just left on a gurney by his friends. When they start CPR the trauma surgeon says did we ever have vitals? When he hears No, they crack the patients chest with the rib spreader and find out that he has almost NO blood in his heart! He has them keep giving the patient blood and you literally watch his heart start pumping again! It's crazy!
You have to watch it! It's great!
Ok seriously, how much longer till my meds kick in? Awwwwwwwww! I hate this!
Great, now the dog has some serious gas going on! What else is gonna happen tonite??
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Twenty-Eight!!
Yep. You read it right. I am down 28 pounds!! I haven't weighed this in over five years. Hell, it's probably been ten years!! How exciting! I had planned on telling you all this earliertoday. In fact I had a nice entry to my blog all typed out. Then I got up for something, my stupid left hand that pretty much does whatever it wants to, hit a button, and BOOM!! No more blog. All gone. So sad. You guys really missed out. It was some of my finest work. Witty, fun to read, even a little excitement. Oh well.
I have been lookivng at everyones first day of school pics. How cute everyone is. I haven't taken a picture of T on the first day of school in years. Does that make me a bad parent?? He's been so self-sufficient for so long that most of the time I don't think he needs me at all! He will be 16 on Christmas! My how time flies. My Tay will be 20 in January! That means that it has been almost 16 years that I have been a single mom! Wow!
You know when your kids were little and people would tell you "Enjoy it now. It flies by" but you never really belived that. Especially not on bad days when they are driving you up a wall and you would wish for it to fly by. Well now is when that comes back to bite you in the ass!
I have had a really crappy feeling day today. I think I am dehydrated from sleeping so much this weekend. Plus I haven't ate enough protein in the last three days. So I was very sick to my stomach this morning. I try to eat enough but it's not easy. You reallyget tired of shakes, yogurt and soup! I got to add mashed potatoes and cottage cheese but you get sick of that too. Oh well, just a few more weeks and then I can start adding a few more foods.
Time for me to find something to watch on tv. I cooked T suuper (2 days in a row!), finished Tays laundry, and fed the animals. Time for rest now. Catch ya on the flip side.
I have been lookivng at everyones first day of school pics. How cute everyone is. I haven't taken a picture of T on the first day of school in years. Does that make me a bad parent?? He's been so self-sufficient for so long that most of the time I don't think he needs me at all! He will be 16 on Christmas! My how time flies. My Tay will be 20 in January! That means that it has been almost 16 years that I have been a single mom! Wow!
You know when your kids were little and people would tell you "Enjoy it now. It flies by" but you never really belived that. Especially not on bad days when they are driving you up a wall and you would wish for it to fly by. Well now is when that comes back to bite you in the ass!
I have had a really crappy feeling day today. I think I am dehydrated from sleeping so much this weekend. Plus I haven't ate enough protein in the last three days. So I was very sick to my stomach this morning. I try to eat enough but it's not easy. You reallyget tired of shakes, yogurt and soup! I got to add mashed potatoes and cottage cheese but you get sick of that too. Oh well, just a few more weeks and then I can start adding a few more foods.
Time for me to find something to watch on tv. I cooked T suuper (2 days in a row!), finished Tays laundry, and fed the animals. Time for rest now. Catch ya on the flip side.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Twenty-Eight!
That's right. You read it right. Twenty- Eight! I am now 28 pounds lighter! I haven't been this weight in at least 5 years, hell it's probably more like 10 years!
I am once again watching one of my favorite movies, Jurassic Park. It doesn't matter how many times I see it. I love it! If your older kids haven't seen it, they should. Great movie. Of course it's not as good as Aliens. I think I have seen that movie a few hundred times. T and Tay are sick of it. They hate when I wanna watch it again. LOL
I can't believe its time for the kids to go back to school already. How time flies when you do nothing all summer!! Oh well, another summer gone by. Maybe next year we will be able to do something.
Well it's time to go back to my movie. Night all and have a great day tomorrow!
I am once again watching one of my favorite movies, Jurassic Park. It doesn't matter how many times I see it. I love it! If your older kids haven't seen it, they should. Great movie. Of course it's not as good as Aliens. I think I have seen that movie a few hundred times. T and Tay are sick of it. They hate when I wanna watch it again. LOL
I can't believe its time for the kids to go back to school already. How time flies when you do nothing all summer!! Oh well, another summer gone by. Maybe next year we will be able to do something.
Well it's time to go back to my movie. Night all and have a great day tomorrow!
Labor Day Weekend
Well, as usual, I had an uneventful weekend of sleeping. I will be glad when my energy level goes up. It sucks being so damn tired all of the time. If I don't take my "stay awake" pill, I'm falling asleep. I get so sleepy all day long. Today my sons girlfriend is coming over to watch movies. I want to stay awake and do some cleaning, but I am barely able to type this without passing out. That is whyI don't type on the weekends.
I have decided that two days of sleep is enough!! I hate taking my stay awake pills on the weekend cause I need to get caught up on my sleep. But something has to give pretty soon! I can't sleep every weekend! I have been for the last year or two!
I have hope that once I get skinny I won't need to sleep so much. I want my life back. We couldn't afford to go on vacations but we used to at least go to St Ignace to the dunes to go swimming once in awhile. We haven't done that in years. So sad that my kids never got to go places and do things that other kids got to do. I have always worked and did the best I could, but it was never enough for them to get to do the fun things other families do.
I hope that they will get to do things like that as adults. I think I have given them both good work ethics so they will be able to get what they want in life.
Okay no more boo hooing allowed! I need to eat something and do some cleaning. Have a great day everyone.
I have decided that two days of sleep is enough!! I hate taking my stay awake pills on the weekend cause I need to get caught up on my sleep. But something has to give pretty soon! I can't sleep every weekend! I have been for the last year or two!
I have hope that once I get skinny I won't need to sleep so much. I want my life back. We couldn't afford to go on vacations but we used to at least go to St Ignace to the dunes to go swimming once in awhile. We haven't done that in years. So sad that my kids never got to go places and do things that other kids got to do. I have always worked and did the best I could, but it was never enough for them to get to do the fun things other families do.
I hope that they will get to do things like that as adults. I think I have given them both good work ethics so they will be able to get what they want in life.
Okay no more boo hooing allowed! I need to eat something and do some cleaning. Have a great day everyone.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
26 Pounds!!
T W E N T Y S I X!!! I am down 26 pounds!!! Woo Hoo! Today is the one month mark and I have lost 26 Pounds!! Today was a long day but now I feel better.
Picked up Tay for work at 8:30 this morning, worked my 8 hours. Sat with my Mom in the surgery waiting room for my lunch. Waiting for Daddy to come out. He had his Port and feeding tube put in today. Both went well. Tomorrow its back to Petoskey for radiation. He has 5 weeks of radiation and chemo oncde a week for 5 weeks. Then we should be good!
After work I took T and his girl, Kelsey, to the fair. Then home about 10:30. I have to pick Tay up at 6 am for work. Started to fell asleep and my stupid legs started kicking. The spacitisity seems to be breaking thru the pain meds again. Damn damn!
I enjoyed sitting at the fair with Linda Crimin and her family. They are all great people. It was nice to get out and do something for change. I miss going out and doing things with other adults. I used to go out, go tubing, bowling, but I haven't done much of anything anymore. It will be nice to get my life back.
Picked up Tay for work at 8:30 this morning, worked my 8 hours. Sat with my Mom in the surgery waiting room for my lunch. Waiting for Daddy to come out. He had his Port and feeding tube put in today. Both went well. Tomorrow its back to Petoskey for radiation. He has 5 weeks of radiation and chemo oncde a week for 5 weeks. Then we should be good!
After work I took T and his girl, Kelsey, to the fair. Then home about 10:30. I have to pick Tay up at 6 am for work. Started to fell asleep and my stupid legs started kicking. The spacitisity seems to be breaking thru the pain meds again. Damn damn!
I enjoyed sitting at the fair with Linda Crimin and her family. They are all great people. It was nice to get out and do something for change. I miss going out and doing things with other adults. I used to go out, go tubing, bowling, but I haven't done much of anything anymore. It will be nice to get my life back.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
wed, aug 29, 2012
It's hard to keep this up when your running around so much! Sorry guys it's been a hectic week already. I drive Tay to work so have to get ready earlier in the morning. Just seems to be a lot going on.
Today I woke up with a headache. These cats are driving me crazy. I have to get rid of 3 more. I really can't take it much longer. I didn't want to take them to shelter but I can't find them homes so that is going to be my last resort.
Tonite after work I'm taking T and his girl Kelsey to the fair. So another long day ahead. I will post more tonite. Have a great day everyone!
Today I woke up with a headache. These cats are driving me crazy. I have to get rid of 3 more. I really can't take it much longer. I didn't want to take them to shelter but I can't find them homes so that is going to be my last resort.
Tonite after work I'm taking T and his girl Kelsey to the fair. So another long day ahead. I will post more tonite. Have a great day everyone!
Monday, August 27, 2012
Mon, Aug 27, 2012
I know I promised not to miss anymore days, but in my defense, I was sleeping! If I don't take my stay awake pill, after a long week of working, then basically I don't stay awake! So I had a two day nap. Ok it's more like a coma.
I only have a minute then I have to get ready. Today I drive my dad to his first radiation appointment. This means I also have to keep my mom settled enough to get across the bridge!! She is VERY scared of the bridge.
Well I hate to cut this short but I have to get ready and get out of here. Wish us luck!
I only have a minute then I have to get ready. Today I drive my dad to his first radiation appointment. This means I also have to keep my mom settled enough to get across the bridge!! She is VERY scared of the bridge.
Well I hate to cut this short but I have to get ready and get out of here. Wish us luck!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Fri, August 24, 2012
Wow! I just realized that I haven't updated this since Tuesday! Sorry guys! It has been a very busy week! I didnt get home until late on Wed, then we had football last night. T played in Petoskey. Sadly they lost but they played hard. We play again next Thur but I won't get to watch that one. I can't afford to go. Gas is crazy expensive! They will be in Alpena and that is a long drive.
I woke up this morning to about 15 hornets in my kitchen!! I was running around killing them with a rolled up magazine and Bailey as right behind me eating them! Then there was about 30 flies in the dining room window! What the hell is going on??? I sprayed them withbug spray and then cleaned up the carnage. I found a small gap in the dining room window so I closed it the rest of the way and locked it. Hopefully that will take care it!
I had an appointment with the dietitician yesterday. I am doing well. I have to double the amount of water I am drinking and the protein. I am down to 278. That's 21 pounds down! 118 to go. My goal is 160.
I am waiting to pick T up from the football tame and then pick Tay up from work at 1130. Then I can finally put my pj's on! I can't wait! I am pretty damn tired.
Monday I am driving my parents to Petoskey in the morning. My dad starts his radiation on Monday. He was recently diagnosed with esophagus cancer. We have 5 weeks of radiation (Mon - Fri) and chemo on Mondays. It hasn't spread anywhere and this should kill it! We will get through this just like we get through everything else, with family, faith and a sense of humor!
Well now I think I need to find something to eat. I will write more this weekend, I promise!
I woke up this morning to about 15 hornets in my kitchen!! I was running around killing them with a rolled up magazine and Bailey as right behind me eating them! Then there was about 30 flies in the dining room window! What the hell is going on??? I sprayed them withbug spray and then cleaned up the carnage. I found a small gap in the dining room window so I closed it the rest of the way and locked it. Hopefully that will take care it!
I had an appointment with the dietitician yesterday. I am doing well. I have to double the amount of water I am drinking and the protein. I am down to 278. That's 21 pounds down! 118 to go. My goal is 160.
I am waiting to pick T up from the football tame and then pick Tay up from work at 1130. Then I can finally put my pj's on! I can't wait! I am pretty damn tired.
Monday I am driving my parents to Petoskey in the morning. My dad starts his radiation on Monday. He was recently diagnosed with esophagus cancer. We have 5 weeks of radiation (Mon - Fri) and chemo on Mondays. It hasn't spread anywhere and this should kill it! We will get through this just like we get through everything else, with family, faith and a sense of humor!
Well now I think I need to find something to eat. I will write more this weekend, I promise!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Tues,August 21, 2012
Another great day at work! I am so glad that I went back to work! So I heard that I have been pretty depressin lately. Geez I am so surprised! Me? Negative? The hell you say!!
I wanted to make sure that I remind everyone thatwhen you read my blog and see some typos, that I do know that I have some but sometimes it's very hard to get back to them to fix them on this tablet. So please bare with me. Believe me, it kills me to know they are there!!
I can't believe summer is almost over! Man that flew by! I never even made it to the beach even once! Ok, I couldn't even type that with a straight face!! Ha ha ha me at the beach! Well guess what people?! This time next year I will be so skinny, that my SKINNY ass will have been at the beach numerous times! That's right, I said it, SKINNY ass!! Now normally, I would have been saying blah blah blah FAT ass, but not anymore!
Now I also need to remind everyone that just because I will be skinny soon, doesn't mean that I will not be able to say fat jokes. I have been heavy for most of my life, so I am grandfathered in on the fat jokes! :)
I am hoping to make it up to the ball fields this weekend. The KDR Challenge is going on up there this weekend. My friend/coworker Jenn Ware is one of the creators of the challenge. It's very inspiring when people do things like that. Good luck to all of the teams that have signed up for it! What a great cause and a great way to raise money for it.
We were able to give away two of our kittens. One more to go! Then we also have a one year old female gray tabby. Slow but sure we are finding them homes. So if you are looking for a lovable, friend to add to your family, let me know!
Time to go back to sleep. Thanks for reading. Take care and have a great day!
I wanted to make sure that I remind everyone thatwhen you read my blog and see some typos, that I do know that I have some but sometimes it's very hard to get back to them to fix them on this tablet. So please bare with me. Believe me, it kills me to know they are there!!
I can't believe summer is almost over! Man that flew by! I never even made it to the beach even once! Ok, I couldn't even type that with a straight face!! Ha ha ha me at the beach! Well guess what people?! This time next year I will be so skinny, that my SKINNY ass will have been at the beach numerous times! That's right, I said it, SKINNY ass!! Now normally, I would have been saying blah blah blah FAT ass, but not anymore!
Now I also need to remind everyone that just because I will be skinny soon, doesn't mean that I will not be able to say fat jokes. I have been heavy for most of my life, so I am grandfathered in on the fat jokes! :)
I am hoping to make it up to the ball fields this weekend. The KDR Challenge is going on up there this weekend. My friend/coworker Jenn Ware is one of the creators of the challenge. It's very inspiring when people do things like that. Good luck to all of the teams that have signed up for it! What a great cause and a great way to raise money for it.
We were able to give away two of our kittens. One more to go! Then we also have a one year old female gray tabby. Slow but sure we are finding them homes. So if you are looking for a lovable, friend to add to your family, let me know!
Time to go back to sleep. Thanks for reading. Take care and have a great day!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Awake already
After a long first day of work, spending 2 1/2 hours in the ER with T, I finally fell asleep around 1:30. I can't belie ve I am up already! I forgot to take my evening pain med so I woke up in pain. It is so awful to wake up in so much pain. I hate that I was so tired that I didn't remember. You have no idea how much spasiticity hurts. It's worse then childbirth. All I can do is sit here and cry while I wait for the pill to kick in. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
I try so hard to be quiet so I don't wake T up. He hates to hear me crying and knowing that he can't do anything to make it go away. This is one of the few times when I really miss not having someone in my life that I can seek comfort from.
It is finally calming down so I am going to try to sleep a few hours before work. Thanks for "listening".
Good nite.
I try so hard to be quiet so I don't wake T up. He hates to hear me crying and knowing that he can't do anything to make it go away. This is one of the few times when I really miss not having someone in my life that I can seek comfort from.
It is finally calming down so I am going to try to sleep a few hours before work. Thanks for "listening".
Good nite.
Monday, August 20, 2012
First day back to work....
Well my first day at work went well! I felt good all day! Then I picked T up from football practice, picked him up some dinner and brought him home. Then off to my parents to talk about daddy's doctor appointment. Then off to Walmart for more groceries, stuff for the parents, then back to bring them their stuff. I am so happy to be home! I just got here a half an hour ago! I have tp ick Tay up at 12:30 from work. Man do we need to get her car fixed!
It surprising how content you can feel just sitting in your favorite chair, playing on your tablet, kitty cat in your lap. My Jonesy is cuddling and purring. He is my favorite!
T has his first game this Thursday in Petoskey at 6. Can't wait to cheer on the Devils JV Team!!
This time stupid charter's digital is out. The internet and phone are working but not the cable. Go figure! At least I can still watch what's on the DVR.
Well it's time to 'chill' before I have to go get Tay. Have a great day tomorrow!
It surprising how content you can feel just sitting in your favorite chair, playing on your tablet, kitty cat in your lap. My Jonesy is cuddling and purring. He is my favorite!
T has his first game this Thursday in Petoskey at 6. Can't wait to cheer on the Devils JV Team!!
This time stupid charter's digital is out. The internet and phone are working but not the cable. Go figure! At least I can still watch what's on the DVR.
Well it's time to 'chill' before I have to go get Tay. Have a great day tomorrow!
Mon, August 20, 2012
Today I go back to work!! I am very excited! I love my job! I gotta be honest, yesterday I wasn't feeling very good and was worried about going back today. I didn't sleep very much last night. But today I am up and ready to go!
I just have to remember to slow down when eating. I think that's why I haven't been feeling good. It shouldn't be hard to do when I am at work. I've had plenty of days when I had to nuke my lunch 3 & 4 times before I finally get to eat it. I usually just grab it and bring it to my desk to eat and then get distracted by work.
T-man has football practice at 4 now so I can pick him up everyday after practice. His first game is Thursday at 6 in Petoskey. He is on the JV team. I am excited to watch him play football again.
Well I gotta go. I have to finisg getting ready. Have a great day today!!
I just have to remember to slow down when eating. I think that's why I haven't been feeling good. It shouldn't be hard to do when I am at work. I've had plenty of days when I had to nuke my lunch 3 & 4 times before I finally get to eat it. I usually just grab it and bring it to my desk to eat and then get distracted by work.
T-man has football practice at 4 now so I can pick him up everyday after practice. His first game is Thursday at 6 in Petoskey. He is on the JV team. I am excited to watch him play football again.
Well I gotta go. I have to finisg getting ready. Have a great day today!!
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Sun, August 19, 2012
Sorry peeps. Not feeling good today. No blogging right now. I will try later but the stupid charter keeps going out again.
Some of my favorite quotes
Laughter is the shock absorber that eases the blows of life.
Borrow money from a pessimist - they don't expect it back.
Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.
To reach a great height a person needs to have a great depth.
Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me.
Any man who knows all the answers most likely misunderstood the quesions.
Asmart person knows what to say, A wise person knows whether or not to say it.
The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.
Our 5 scenses are incomplete without the 6th - a sense of humor.
Always be flexible...that way you don't get bent out shape.
Whatever your past has been, your future is spotless.
We do not stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.
A man who says he has never told a lie, has just told one.
A friend is someone you can do nothing with, and enjoy it.
A hard thing about business is minding your own.
When you smile at someone, 9 times out of 10 the other person will smile back and you've made 2 people's day brighter and better.
Great minds discuss ideas, Average minds discuss events, Small minds discuss people.
Borrow money from a pessimist - they don't expect it back.
Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.
To reach a great height a person needs to have a great depth.
Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me.
Any man who knows all the answers most likely misunderstood the quesions.
Asmart person knows what to say, A wise person knows whether or not to say it.
The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.
Our 5 scenses are incomplete without the 6th - a sense of humor.
Always be flexible...that way you don't get bent out shape.
Whatever your past has been, your future is spotless.
We do not stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.
A man who says he has never told a lie, has just told one.
A friend is someone you can do nothing with, and enjoy it.
A hard thing about business is minding your own.
When you smile at someone, 9 times out of 10 the other person will smile back and you've made 2 people's day brighter and better.
Great minds discuss ideas, Average minds discuss events, Small minds discuss people.
saturday night
It's been a long crappy day. My stomach is still yucky. I feel hungry, I think.
I am hoping tomorrow will be better. I want to get a lot of things done tomorrow! At least I got to hang out with T today. Ok not really. He pretty much stayed upstairs all day playing the games I bought him from the Selling Goods Facebook group. Tay had to work today so I didn't see her either. Plus she has the van, so no car to go anywhere. He car is once again not running. I think she needs an alternator. Everytime she gets it jumped to get it started, as soon as it is shut off,
it doesn't start again. Then it needs another jump. So it's sitting in my yard while we find someone who will take payments to fix it.
Stupid Charter wasn't working again either. Just got the phone and internet back. I had to call them last weekend cause they were out for 2 days. At least they gave me a credit for them. Guess I will be calling again! I tried earlier but both times the phone went out again!
Ok enough crabby talk, or type, for one day!
So glad I go back to work on Monday! Let's try listing the positives instead of all this negativity!
I go back to work on Monday.
One and a half more weeks and I can eat scrammbled eggs and mashed potatoes!
I have lost like 25 pounds. I really don't know for sure because I can't find a level spot in my house to put the scale! It never says the same weight anywhere.
I'm getting negative again. I spelled scrambled wrong! But I can't seem to click on the right spot on this tablet so I can fix it. So just ignore it!
Now where was I? Oh yes my list of positives:
Hmmm......
Ummmmmm
Did I say I get eggs and potatoes soon?
I am hoping tomorrow will be better. I want to get a lot of things done tomorrow! At least I got to hang out with T today. Ok not really. He pretty much stayed upstairs all day playing the games I bought him from the Selling Goods Facebook group. Tay had to work today so I didn't see her either. Plus she has the van, so no car to go anywhere. He car is once again not running. I think she needs an alternator. Everytime she gets it jumped to get it started, as soon as it is shut off,
it doesn't start again. Then it needs another jump. So it's sitting in my yard while we find someone who will take payments to fix it.
Stupid Charter wasn't working again either. Just got the phone and internet back. I had to call them last weekend cause they were out for 2 days. At least they gave me a credit for them. Guess I will be calling again! I tried earlier but both times the phone went out again!
Ok enough crabby talk, or type, for one day!
So glad I go back to work on Monday! Let's try listing the positives instead of all this negativity!
I go back to work on Monday.
One and a half more weeks and I can eat scrammbled eggs and mashed potatoes!
I have lost like 25 pounds. I really don't know for sure because I can't find a level spot in my house to put the scale! It never says the same weight anywhere.
I'm getting negative again. I spelled scrambled wrong! But I can't seem to click on the right spot on this tablet so I can fix it. So just ignore it!
Now where was I? Oh yes my list of positives:
Hmmm......
Ummmmmm
Did I say I get eggs and potatoes soon?
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Sat, August 18, 2012
A late blog again. Stpid Charter has been down most of todat. Internet and phone. It sounds like more thunder outside. Will probably lose it again! I have spent most of the day sleeping. Really not feeling well today. Everytime I try to eat, I feel sick. Think I have been eating too fast. Know its not because I ate too much. I could only eat 1/3 of my soup. Feeling sick to my stomach a lot today. Think I might be dehydrated too. I picked the wrong day to give Tay the van! Could use some more SF popsicles. Almost out!
I will have to call for a popsicle run! Lol
I had planned on cleaning house today. I really did want to! Oh well, will work on it tomorrow. I am getting some reading done today. Reading the Hunger Games. I wanted to finish it before I watch the movie. The book is always better than the movie.
Well I know it's another short one for today, but really don't feel like typing anymore. Have a great day. See ya on the flip side!
I will have to call for a popsicle run! Lol
I had planned on cleaning house today. I really did want to! Oh well, will work on it tomorrow. I am getting some reading done today. Reading the Hunger Games. I wanted to finish it before I watch the movie. The book is always better than the movie.
Well I know it's another short one for today, but really don't feel like typing anymore. Have a great day. See ya on the flip side!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Depression
Have you ever been depressed? If you answered "No", I think your lying to yourself. Everyone gets depressed now and then. There are many different levels of depression. Most people just get sad or weepy for a day or two and then it goes away For some people, like me, it never goes away. It stays in the background, waiting for that day that you forgot to take meds. Waiting, so it can creep up when your not expecting it, and bring with it all of your doubts, your sadness, your anger, your pain, your self loathing. There's no rhyme or reason to it. It doesn't care if you were happy, excited, feeling good about youself. It creeps up and covers you in all its negativity. That is how it feels when you forget to take your meds, or when a bunch of negative things have happened that you haven't dealt with.
Next time someone you know says they are depressed, please don't assume that they can just turn it off. That thinking good thoughts, remembering what good life they have or that you don't think/feel that they have any reason to be depressed. It isn't something you can justshake off.
I cover mine up with humor, I joke around, poke fun at myself and others but it is always in the background waiting to creep up and surround me. Waiting to drag me down and keep me there.
I didn't type all of this to make you feel bad, feel sorry for me or to bring you down. I wanted to explain it so you could understand what it feels like.
Now lets all move on to happier thoughts!
Next time someone you know says they are depressed, please don't assume that they can just turn it off. That thinking good thoughts, remembering what good life they have or that you don't think/feel that they have any reason to be depressed. It isn't something you can justshake off.
I cover mine up with humor, I joke around, poke fun at myself and others but it is always in the background waiting to creep up and surround me. Waiting to drag me down and keep me there.
I didn't type all of this to make you feel bad, feel sorry for me or to bring you down. I wanted to explain it so you could understand what it feels like.
Now lets all move on to happier thoughts!
Fri, August 17, 2012
TGIF! I fell asleep early last nite and now I have been awake since 1:30! Today I am taking it easy. I was gone all day on Wednesday and it took its toll on me. I slep almost all day yesterday. I was all excited to watch T play football and then my lunch was my downfall. :(
Too much tomato soup again. It made me feel sick. So I don't think I will be eating it again, at least for a while. I had a bitchy day yesterday, during my few waking moments. I was feeling hungry. I called my support person, Lisa, but really didn't want to hear what she had to say. When you get the sleeve done, they pretty much cut the hunger out of you! Today it didn't feel that way. Damn TV commercials! They made me hungry! Well at least I "thought" I was hungry. Its hard to only drink everything. You really get an ache for some substance! What I wouldn't do for a piece of lettuce!! A green olive! A piece of toast!
Oh well, I try to think of other things, but it's not always easy to do. Now I can weigh myself when I get frustrated. Or eat a popsicle! Ok so I just did both! Today the scale said 273. Woohoo a few pounds a day lost!
Time to try to sleep again. Catch you on the flip side!
Too much tomato soup again. It made me feel sick. So I don't think I will be eating it again, at least for a while. I had a bitchy day yesterday, during my few waking moments. I was feeling hungry. I called my support person, Lisa, but really didn't want to hear what she had to say. When you get the sleeve done, they pretty much cut the hunger out of you! Today it didn't feel that way. Damn TV commercials! They made me hungry! Well at least I "thought" I was hungry. Its hard to only drink everything. You really get an ache for some substance! What I wouldn't do for a piece of lettuce!! A green olive! A piece of toast!
Oh well, I try to think of other things, but it's not always easy to do. Now I can weigh myself when I get frustrated. Or eat a popsicle! Ok so I just did both! Today the scale said 273. Woohoo a few pounds a day lost!
Time to try to sleep again. Catch you on the flip side!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Thurs, august 16, 2012
Today we get to watch T play football! They have a scrimmage at the practice field at 3:30 today! Woohoo go Blue Devils!!
I forgot to tell you, we bought a scale last nite. It said, get this, 278.5!! Wow! That means I lost another 4.5 pounds in the last 2 days!! Of course we must remember that every scale is different, but.......YEAH! It's happening! It's a good thing too, cause I am seriosly tired of all the liquids! You have no idea how badly you miss eating the simpliest things, like a piece of toast! What I would give to be able to eat a piece of fruit!! Course if I had ate more fruit years ago I might not be 278.5 pounds!!
Uh oh! I hear thunder and rain! Damn! We might not be watching football today after all. Bummer. The boys are going to be dsappointed too!!
Well I have a few things to do. Get back to you all later!
Wed, August 15 cont.
I had to start a new one. I was trying to edit the firstpart because I typed "those of you who no me" and wanted to change it to "those of you who know me" but this stupid thing wouldn't let me get to that part to change it! I do not have any patience for that tonite.
Anyhow, back to me! (ha ha)
I was married to Terrance's father but it didn't work out. That is a tale for another time. Anyhow, I moved back home from Baltimore, MD in April of 97. I moved back in with my parents with a 4 year old and a 4 month old! I started working at the hospital in August of 97. We lived with them for a year, then we moved back in with Terry after he got discharged from the Coast Guard, and then back in with them after it didn't work out with Terry, again.
So you see, I owe my parents alot. They always took us in when we didn't have anywhere else to go.
Now back to our regularly scheduled program. After GFS I went to my parents, then after some discussion with my dad about their insurance, I was off to the hospital to pick up Tay from work. Then back to my mom's because now WE are going shopping. I had such a longgggg day of shopping today. Aft Mom, Tay and I went, then Terrance and I went to Kmart. By the time we got home it was like 7 pm! I was so tired! So I sat in my chair, FINALLY eating something, while T(errance, I will be calling him T from now on, Terrance is a lot to type!) swept and mopped the kitchen and living room while we listened to music. It was a nice evening. We listened to my favorite artist, Anita Baker, then some old, old songs
I found and did a lot of laughing! Tay called so we got her involved too! It was a really great evening. I love my kids so much! They are the best parts of me.
Well before I get all weepy, I'm going to say goodnite. I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow.
I found and did a lot of laughing! Tay called so we got her involved too! It was a really great evening. I love my kids so much! They are the best parts of me.
Well before I get all weepy, I'm going to say goodnite. I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow.
Wed, August 15, 2012
Sorry I missed my update this morning. I woke up late and had to run out of the house this morning. I had to give Tay a ride to work for 9. Then I wanted to run to GFS to pick up one of the mops that they use at the hospital. I saw the one they were using there when I was in for my surgery and it worked great so I went to get one. I have all bare floors so I thought it would work great at my house too!
So here I am at Gordon's just wanting a mop, yeah right! Have you ever been able to go to a store for one thing and ONLY get that one thing? Well yeah for you for anyone that said yes! I walk in the door and head down the first aisle, which was my first mistake. I mean, I only wanted a mop, why am I heading down a food aisle? Needless to say, $73 later, I found myself heading to my parents house! LOL
Oh well. I did buy a few things for them. You know there was a time (well lots of times) when I would go shopping with my mom because she would always get stuff for the kids and I Now a few years later the tables have turned. Tay goes shopping with me because she knows I will buy her stuff!! Now I buy things for my parents. Don't get me wrong, I certainly do not make big bucks or anything, but my parents helped the kids and I whenever they could. It's only right that I do the same thing for them now that they are on a fixed income.
Most of you who are reading this no me quite well, but for those of you who don't, I have been a single mother for 15 years.
So here I am at Gordon's just wanting a mop, yeah right! Have you ever been able to go to a store for one thing and ONLY get that one thing? Well yeah for you for anyone that said yes! I walk in the door and head down the first aisle, which was my first mistake. I mean, I only wanted a mop, why am I heading down a food aisle? Needless to say, $73 later, I found myself heading to my parents house! LOL
Oh well. I did buy a few things for them. You know there was a time (well lots of times) when I would go shopping with my mom because she would always get stuff for the kids and I Now a few years later the tables have turned. Tay goes shopping with me because she knows I will buy her stuff!! Now I buy things for my parents. Don't get me wrong, I certainly do not make big bucks or anything, but my parents helped the kids and I whenever they could. It's only right that I do the same thing for them now that they are on a fixed income.
Most of you who are reading this no me quite well, but for those of you who don't, I have been a single mother for 15 years.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Doctor appointment
Well my appointment went well. I was 283. So I have lost 29 pounds since I left the hospital but I shouldn't be counting the extra weight I lost from the fluids and gas from the surgery. So that means that I have lost 16 pounds. Of course we could start counting fromwhen I started the whole process which would mean I have lost 32 pounds. Geez! What should I do? Where do I start?
When I went back to work in December after being off work for 3 1/2 months because of my MS, I weighed 315 pounds. That is when I restarted the whole process to get the surgery. Ithink I should count that but I don't know. Anyways, I'm losing weight and that is all that matters!
When I went back to work in December after being off work for 3 1/2 months because of my MS, I weighed 315 pounds. That is when I restarted the whole process to get the surgery. Ithink I should count that but I don't know. Anyways, I'm losing weight and that is all that matters!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I have been up all nite long. My poor Tay was all set to go back to work today, unfortunately the prescription she got yesterday has not agreed with her! She has been sick all nite! We have to get a new script tomorrow and a new return to work. Now she can't work again. Poor baby!
I am still feeling yucky myself. I have that test at 9 am and then on to Dr Cipriano
after to find out how much weight I have lost and get my return to work slip. I will be happy to go back to work.
Then I have to do some house cleaning. Bailey sheds like crazy. It drives me nuts!
Well I'm going to try to sleep, again!
I am still feeling yucky myself. I have that test at 9 am and then on to Dr Cipriano
after to find out how much weight I have lost and get my return to work slip. I will be happy to go back to work.
Then I have to do some house cleaning. Bailey sheds like crazy. It drives me nuts!
Well I'm going to try to sleep, again!
Sick
Well it happened. I ate too much. I was having some tomato soup with a couple of crackers melted in it, and I ate too much. I stopped as soon as I felt full but it wasn't fast enough. Now I am lethargic, nauseated, getting a headache, my stomach hurts. Yuck yuckyuck. At first I thought it was my sugar again so I put a candy in my mouth to bring my sugar up but it didn't help. Now I know it's because I ate too much.
Yuck! I will work Very hard not to do that again!
Well I can't eat anything after midnite anyways so it should be easy to not eat for a while. I have my swallow test in the morning. It checks to make sure there aren't any leaks in my new "stomach". Then I have my first post-op doctor appointment at 10. I weighed myself at Dr O'Connor's when I took Tay to her appointment today. It said 283!
Woooooohooooooo! Its all worth it. Even the sick feeling. I hope you all have a great day tomorrow! I'll keep you posted!
Yuck! I will work Very hard not to do that again!
Well I can't eat anything after midnite anyways so it should be easy to not eat for a while. I have my swallow test in the morning. It checks to make sure there aren't any leaks in my new "stomach". Then I have my first post-op doctor appointment at 10. I weighed myself at Dr O'Connor's when I took Tay to her appointment today. It said 283!
Woooooohooooooo! Its all worth it. Even the sick feeling. I hope you all have a great day tomorrow! I'll keep you posted!
Monday, August 13, 2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
Woke up early today. Feeling a little yucky. I have to update this now cause my tablet isn't charging since the cord was chewed through! Damn animals! I have to splice it, again! Good thing I know a little bit of this and that. Jack of all trades, master of none. Yeah, that describes me. I have had so many different jobs in my life that I have learned all kinds of things! Lol
I started working at 13 at Soo Theatre. Wow that was a longggggg time ago! Then when I was 18 I worked 4 different jobs, 8-12 at the Malcolm Building working on a grant for the school system, 12:30 - 5:00 at the motel that used to be where Walgreens is now (for the life of me I can't remember the name of it), 6 - 10 at the theatre and then 11 - 2:30 I babysat. Of course I didn't always work all 4 jobs on the same day. Then I moved to St. Ignace, to be on my own, course I lived with my sister for a while.
So many jobs, so many years have gone by. After everything I have done in my life, the most important was becoming a Mom. I have been blessed with two great kids! They are both great people, loving, caring, smart. They have blessed my life. I love them both very much. At the end of everyday, I thank God for them.
I love you Taylor Elizabeth Pettett and Terrance Lee Fuller Jr.
I hope you all have a great day today.
I started working at 13 at Soo Theatre. Wow that was a longggggg time ago! Then when I was 18 I worked 4 different jobs, 8-12 at the Malcolm Building working on a grant for the school system, 12:30 - 5:00 at the motel that used to be where Walgreens is now (for the life of me I can't remember the name of it), 6 - 10 at the theatre and then 11 - 2:30 I babysat. Of course I didn't always work all 4 jobs on the same day. Then I moved to St. Ignace, to be on my own, course I lived with my sister for a while.
So many jobs, so many years have gone by. After everything I have done in my life, the most important was becoming a Mom. I have been blessed with two great kids! They are both great people, loving, caring, smart. They have blessed my life. I love them both very much. At the end of everyday, I thank God for them.
I love you Taylor Elizabeth Pettett and Terrance Lee Fuller Jr.
I hope you all have a great day today.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
No title just blogging
I didn't get any cleaning done but I did go to Walgreens to get Tay's prescriptions filled. Hopefully they will make her feel better. Walgreens has bottled water for $1.99 for 24 bottles and arm & hammer laundry soap, the "pods" that you just drop in the washer, buy one get one free plus there is a coupon on them to try it for free. So you buy one for $6.99 and get one free then get the $6.99 back in the mail! Woohoo!! Ain't nothing like free!
So I'm sitting in my chair yapping to Kelly (my best friend for the last 25 or so years). It's great to taalk to her. We just know each other so well. We don't always agree on everything but that's what best friends are all about. We don't have to agree on everything and still be friends.
Anyhow, my doctor appointment is in 2 days! Then I will get weighed again! I have never been so excited to get weighed before. I am also asking to go back to work next Monday. Two and a half weeks is enough for me. I don't want to keep sitting around the house. I need to get back out there to my life.
Terrance has a scrimmage this Thursday against Gaylord at 3:30 at the football field. I am looking forward to watching him play. It has been awhile since he played football. Well it's time to go get some more "food" in me. I don't want to lose my hair!!
So I'm sitting in my chair yapping to Kelly (my best friend for the last 25 or so years). It's great to taalk to her. We just know each other so well. We don't always agree on everything but that's what best friends are all about. We don't have to agree on everything and still be friends.
Anyhow, my doctor appointment is in 2 days! Then I will get weighed again! I have never been so excited to get weighed before. I am also asking to go back to work next Monday. Two and a half weeks is enough for me. I don't want to keep sitting around the house. I need to get back out there to my life.
Terrance has a scrimmage this Thursday against Gaylord at 3:30 at the football field. I am looking forward to watching him play. It has been awhile since he played football. Well it's time to go get some more "food" in me. I don't want to lose my hair!!
Sunday, August 12, 2012
No more "post-op day whatever" I can't remember half the time anyways! I woke up feeling good today too!! I haven't had the pain med since Friday! Of course, I still have to take the meds for my MS but at least I am off the one for the surgery. I feel so good today that I think I'm gonna do some work around the house!! This excites me because I really haven't been able to do much around here because of the MS and lets be realistic, because of my size too. Terrance takes good care of me and does most of the work around here, so it will be nice to take care of stuff so he doesn't have too.
My poor Taylor is still so sick. My brother-in-law Bill took her to the clinic yesterday and she has an upper respiratory infection. Hopefully finally getting her medicine today (everything was closed yesterday) and getting plenty of rest will help her get better. It's times like this that I hate that she lives on her own since I can't be there to help her.
Well it's time to drink some breakfast and get ready for the day! Have a great day everyone!
My poor Taylor is still so sick. My brother-in-law Bill took her to the clinic yesterday and she has an upper respiratory infection. Hopefully finally getting her medicine today (everything was closed yesterday) and getting plenty of rest will help her get better. It's times like this that I hate that she lives on her own since I can't be there to help her.
Well it's time to drink some breakfast and get ready for the day! Have a great day everyone!
Saturday, August 11, 2012
My List of Things to Do When I'm Skinny
I figured I can start my list and then add to it as I think of things. :)
1) I can't wait to be skinny so I can be cold! The hot flashes are killing me!
2) Cross my legs - I haven't been able to cross my legs since I was in high school!
3) Skinny Jeans - Nah I'm kidding. No one should wear skinny jeans... lol
4) Long walks - I use to be able to go for long walks a long long long time ago.
5) Ride a Bike - I don't know if I will be able to even when I am skinny. My balance is off
because of the MS.
6) Jogging - I aways wanted to be one of those skinny girls that jog.
7) Wear a dress - I haven't been comfortable wearing a dress since I was 10!
To be continued.... Time to relax and read my book, then fall asleep. Can you think of anything I might want to add to my list? Feel free to comment and leave me your thoughts. Nite all!
1) I can't wait to be skinny so I can be cold! The hot flashes are killing me!
2) Cross my legs - I haven't been able to cross my legs since I was in high school!
3) Skinny Jeans - Nah I'm kidding. No one should wear skinny jeans... lol
4) Long walks - I use to be able to go for long walks a long long long time ago.
5) Ride a Bike - I don't know if I will be able to even when I am skinny. My balance is off
because of the MS.
6) Jogging - I aways wanted to be one of those skinny girls that jog.
7) Wear a dress - I haven't been comfortable wearing a dress since I was 10!
To be continued.... Time to relax and read my book, then fall asleep. Can you think of anything I might want to add to my list? Feel free to comment and leave me your thoughts. Nite all!
Random Thoughts
OMG I just had the best lunch! A half cup of tomato soup with some protein powfer mixed in and a cracker!! I know it doesn't sound that great but when you've been eating only protein shakes and sugar free popsicles for last 10 days, tomato soup is like your favorite thing at Dairy Queen!
I think it's time for a nap. The stupid phone and internet has been going on and off all day and it's really pissing me off. So I will add more to this later. Sorry.
I think it's time for a nap. The stupid phone and internet has been going on and off all day and it's really pissing me off. So I will add more to this later. Sorry.
Day # 10 Post-Op
I woke up today feeling pretty good. I got lots of sleep yesterday, which helped. According to Lisa I am supposed to sleep the same amount of time that I am awake so I can heal. Normally that wouldn't be a problem but for some reason I haven't been able to sleep as much as usual. I am not sure if thats a good or bad thing. Anyhow, I am up now. My poor Tay called me this morning because she is so sick. She worked lots of overtime last paycheck and it caught up to her. Poor baby! I told her to drink plenty of fluids and get lots of rest. Hopefully she will feel better tomorrow.
I am so bummed today! I wrote a great addition to my blog last night and then the stupid internet went down and I lost it. Thise of you who are reading it should feel robbed. It was some of my best work!! :)
Oh yeah! I forgot the best news from yesterday! When we were at the clinic (was that yesterday? I don't remember now) whatever day we were at the clinic, I weighed myself! Now normally I would NEVER share how much I weigh, do I add the T on weigh when saying weigh NOT weight? See how my mind wanders??
Anyhow....When I left the hospital I weighed 312 pounds, thanks to all of the IV fluids and gas from the surgery. But, when I hopped on the scale at the clinic (and yes I really did HOP on it!) I weighed............(does anyone else hear a drum roll?).......288!!!
Holy Hanna that means I have lost 24 pounds since Aug 3!! I am going to be so hot in no time!! LOL
Woohoo!
I am so bummed today! I wrote a great addition to my blog last night and then the stupid internet went down and I lost it. Thise of you who are reading it should feel robbed. It was some of my best work!! :)
Oh yeah! I forgot the best news from yesterday! When we were at the clinic (was that yesterday? I don't remember now) whatever day we were at the clinic, I weighed myself! Now normally I would NEVER share how much I weigh, do I add the T on weigh when saying weigh NOT weight? See how my mind wanders??
Anyhow....When I left the hospital I weighed 312 pounds, thanks to all of the IV fluids and gas from the surgery. But, when I hopped on the scale at the clinic (and yes I really did HOP on it!) I weighed............(does anyone else hear a drum roll?).......288!!!
Holy Hanna that means I have lost 24 pounds since Aug 3!! I am going to be so hot in no time!! LOL
Woohoo!
Day # 9 Post-Op - Sleepy day
Sorry I missed yesterday. I had a slight nervous breakdown. It started out good and then went downhill from there. I went to the Clinic with Taylor because she fell and hurt her ankle. Then we went to pay some bills ( which puts anyone in a bad mood). Penny's had pants for $20 so we went the and did some shopping for her and Terrance. By the time we were done with that I was ready to go home!
I couldn't post this yesterday because stupid charter went down. My phone and internet were both out until this morning.
I couldn't post this yesterday because stupid charter went down. My phone and internet were both out until this morning.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Late Night
I'm sitting here in my usual spot, my recliner (which doubles as my bed), trying to get comfortable so I can go to sleep It's just not happening. I tried to watch NY Med that I taped but just couldn't. They had a patient that died from a PE and it freaked me out. I just had surgery a week ago. What if I am feeling fine and then when I least expect it, BAMMM........PE. The thought scares me and makes me cry. I have two of the best kids in the world, what would they do without me?
I'm usually not Debbie Downer about this kind of stuff so it cost me off guard that I became so emotional about it. Now, for those of you who know me, don't go getting all shocked that I don't think of myself as negative! Yeah, I know it seems that way sometimes, but when you really think about it, it's not ME that's negative, it's just most aspects of my life that are negative!
I mean seriously, who else does this shit happen to?
Let me give you an example:
My ex-husband cheated on me with a woman named Melissa and they ended up having a child together (actually 2 now). Sadly, 3 years or so before that my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with, yep you guessed it, a woman named Melissa! Why, yes, they did have a kid together, oh yeah, actually 2! See what I mean?
Needless to say, NOT knowing a person named Melissa has been added to my list. I have been adding to it for awhile now. Every failed relationship helps me add to it. Wow, is it getting to be a LONG list!!
Well I am glad that I decided to blog some more tonite because now I feel better!
Nite all!
I'm usually not Debbie Downer about this kind of stuff so it cost me off guard that I became so emotional about it. Now, for those of you who know me, don't go getting all shocked that I don't think of myself as negative! Yeah, I know it seems that way sometimes, but when you really think about it, it's not ME that's negative, it's just most aspects of my life that are negative!
I mean seriously, who else does this shit happen to?
Let me give you an example:
My ex-husband cheated on me with a woman named Melissa and they ended up having a child together (actually 2 now). Sadly, 3 years or so before that my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with, yep you guessed it, a woman named Melissa! Why, yes, they did have a kid together, oh yeah, actually 2! See what I mean?
Needless to say, NOT knowing a person named Melissa has been added to my list. I have been adding to it for awhile now. Every failed relationship helps me add to it. Wow, is it getting to be a LONG list!!
Well I am glad that I decided to blog some more tonite because now I feel better!
Nite all!
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Bariatric Surgery - Post- Op Day # 7
Today is # 7 post-op! I woke up this morning feeling great! I did 2 loads of laundry and had my daughter, Taylor, take me to the store to pick up a few things. I still feel pretty damn good. My next appointment is August 14 with Dr Cipriano. I can't wait to go. I am going to ask to go back to work. I think I will heal much better if I am working. I weighed my self at my mothers house today. I know every scale is different and Lord knows my mothers scale is older than I am but....(does anyone else hear a drum roll or is it just me?)
when I left the hospital I weighed 312 but today on the old scale it said I weighed 282!!!
That's 30 pounds in one week! That can't be right!? Although that sounds GREAT, I am going to wait till I get weighed at the doctor's office before I jump up and down. That's if I can jump and down. My balance is off because of the MS so jumping up and down might just end up being sideways and down. But I am hopeful so keep your fingers crossed for me. I know I am! Fingers, toes and anything else I can get to cross. I would have said legs, but I haven't been able to cross my legs since Jr. High. Just one more thing on my list of things I want to do when I get skinny. I will have to list them out for you one day. 5The list keeps growing. Well, enough mindless rambling for one day.
when I left the hospital I weighed 312 but today on the old scale it said I weighed 282!!!
That's 30 pounds in one week! That can't be right!? Although that sounds GREAT, I am going to wait till I get weighed at the doctor's office before I jump up and down. That's if I can jump and down. My balance is off because of the MS so jumping up and down might just end up being sideways and down. But I am hopeful so keep your fingers crossed for me. I know I am! Fingers, toes and anything else I can get to cross. I would have said legs, but I haven't been able to cross my legs since Jr. High. Just one more thing on my list of things I want to do when I get skinny. I will have to list them out for you one day. 5The list keeps growing. Well, enough mindless rambling for one day.
Beginning
In the beginning, God created the Heaven and the Earth............Then a long time later Carla came into the world. First, let me introduce myself. My name is Carla Jean Fuller. I came into this world on July 8, 1970. I am the third child out of four. My parents were blessed with four girls. Yep, you read it right, my poor father had all girls! I had a somewhat "normal dysfunctional" childhood. I say it that way because lets be real here, there's really no such thing as a normal upbringing. I don't care who you are, where your from, or how much money you do or don't have. Everyone has dysfunction in their family somewhere!
Let's jump forward a few years and get to where I am now. We can come back to the early years another time.
Let's jump forward a few years and get to where I am now. We can come back to the early years another time.
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