26 Pounds!!

T W E N T Y  S I X!!!  I am down 26 pounds!!!  Woo Hoo!  Today is the one month mark and I have lost 26 Pounds!!  Today was a long day but now I feel better.

Picked up Tay for work at 8:30 this morning, worked my 8 hours.  Sat with my Mom in the surgery waiting room for my lunch.  Waiting for Daddy to come out.  He had his Port and feeding tube put in today.  Both went well. Tomorrow its back to Petoskey for radiation.  He has 5 weeks of radiation and chemo oncde a week for 5 weeks. Then we should be good!
After work I took T and his girl, Kelsey, to the fair.  Then home about 10:30.  I have to pick Tay up at 6 am for work.  Started to fell asleep and my stupid legs started kicking.  The spacitisity seems to be breaking thru the pain meds again.  Damn damn!

I enjoyed sitting at the fair with Linda Crimin and her family.  They are all great people.  It was nice to get out and do something for change.  I miss going out and doing things with other adults.  I used to go out, go tubing, bowling, but I haven't done much of anything anymore.  It will be nice to get my life back.

wed, aug 29, 2012

It's hard to keep this up when your running around so much!  Sorry guys it's been a hectic week already.  I drive Tay to work so have to get ready earlier in the morning.  Just seems to be a lot going on.

Today I woke up with a headache.  These cats are driving me crazy.  I have to get rid of 3 more.  I really can't take it much longer.  I didn't want to take them to shelter but I can't find them homes so that is going to be my last resort.

Tonite after work I'm taking T and his girl Kelsey to the fair.  So another long day ahead.  I will post more tonite. Have a great day everyone!

Mon, Aug 27, 2012

I know I promised not to miss anymore days, but in my defense, I was sleeping!  If I don't take my stay awake pill, after a long week of working, then basically I don't stay awake!  So I had a two day nap.  Ok it's more like a coma.

I only have a minute then I have to get ready.  Today I drive my dad to his first radiation appointment.  This means I also have to keep my mom settled enough to get across the bridge!!  She is VERY scared of the bridge.

Well I hate to cut this short but I have to get ready and get out of here. Wish us luck!

Fri, August 24, 2012

Wow! I just realized that I haven't updated this since Tuesday!  Sorry guys!  It has been a very busy week!  I didnt get home until late on Wed, then we had football last night.  T played in Petoskey. Sadly they lost but they played hard.  We play again next Thur but I won't get to watch that one.  I can't afford to go. Gas is crazy expensive!  They will be in Alpena and that is a long drive.

I woke up this morning to about 15 hornets in my kitchen!!  I was running around killing them with a rolled up magazine and Bailey as right behind me eating them!  Then there was about 30 flies in the dining room window!  What the hell is going on???  I sprayed them withbug spray and then cleaned up the carnage.  I found a small gap in the dining room window so I closed it the rest of the way and locked it. Hopefully that will take care it!

I had an appointment with the dietitician yesterday.  I am doing well.  I have to double  the amount of water I am drinking and the protein.  I am down to 278. That's 21 pounds down!  118 to go. My goal is 160.

I am waiting to pick T up from the football tame and then pick Tay up from work at 1130.  Then I can finally put my pj's on!  I can't wait!  I am pretty damn tired.

Monday I am driving my parents to Petoskey in the morning.  My dad starts his radiation on Monday.  He was recently diagnosed with esophagus cancer.  We have 5 weeks of radiation (Mon - Fri) and chemo on Mondays.  It hasn't spread anywhere and this should kill it!  We will get through this just like we get through everything else, with family, faith and a sense of humor!

Well now I think I need to find something to eat.  I will write more this weekend, I promise!

Tues,August 21, 2012

Another great day at work!  I am so glad that I went back to work!  So I heard that I have been pretty depressin lately.  Geez I am so surprised!  Me? Negative? The hell you say!!

I wanted to make sure that I remind everyone thatwhen you read my blog and see some typos, that I do know that I have some but sometimes it's very hard to get back to them to fix them on this tablet.  So please bare with me.  Believe me, it kills me to know they are there!!

I can't believe summer is almost over!  Man that flew by!  I never even made it to the beach even once!  Ok, I couldn't even type that with a straight face!!  Ha ha ha me at the beach!  Well guess what people?!  This time next year I will be so skinny, that my SKINNY ass will have been at the beach numerous times!  That's right, I said it, SKINNY ass!!  Now normally, I would have been saying blah blah blah FAT ass, but not anymore!

Now I also need to remind everyone that just because I will be skinny soon, doesn't mean that I will not be able to say fat jokes.  I have been heavy for most of my life, so I am grandfathered in on the fat jokes!  :)

I am hoping to make it up to the ball fields this weekend.  The KDR Challenge is going on up there this weekend.  My friend/coworker Jenn Ware is one of the creators of the challenge.  It's very inspiring when people do things like that.  Good luck to all of the teams that have signed up for it!  What a great cause and a great way to raise money for it.

We were able to give away two of our kittens.  One more to go!  Then we also have a one year old female gray tabby.  Slow but sure we are finding them homes.  So if you are looking for a lovable, friend to add to your family, let me know!

Time to go back to sleep.  Thanks for reading.  Take care and have a great day!

Awake already

After a long first day of work, spending 2 1/2 hours in the ER with T, I finally fell asleep around 1:30.  I can't belie ve I am up already!  I forgot to take my evening pain med so I woke up in pain.  It is so awful to wake up in so much pain.  I hate that I was so tired that I didn't remember.  You have no idea how much spasiticity hurts.  It's worse then childbirth.  All I can do is sit here and cry while I wait for the pill to kick in.  I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

I try so hard to be quiet so I don't wake T up.  He hates to hear me crying and knowing that he can't do anything to make it go away.  This is one of the few times when I really miss not having someone in my life that I can seek comfort from.

It is finally calming down so I am going to try to sleep a few hours before work.  Thanks for "listening".
Good nite.

First day back to work....

Well my first day at work went well!  I felt good all day!  Then I picked T up from football practice, picked him up some dinner and brought him home.  Then off to my parents to talk about daddy's doctor appointment.  Then off to Walmart for more groceries, stuff for the parents, then back to bring them their stuff.  I am so happy to be home!  I just got here a half an hour ago!  I have tp ick Tay up at 12:30 from work.  Man do we need to get her car fixed!

It surprising how content you can feel just sitting in your favorite chair, playing on your tablet, kitty cat in your lap.  My Jonesy is cuddling and purring.  He is my favorite!

T has his first game this Thursday in Petoskey at 6.  Can't wait to cheer on the Devils JV Team!!

This time stupid charter's digital is out.  The internet and phone are working but not the cable.  Go figure!  At least I can still watch what's on the DVR.

Well it's time to 'chill' before I have to go get Tay. Have a great day tomorrow!

Mon, August 20, 2012

Today I go back to work!!  I am very excited!  I love my job!  I gotta be honest, yesterday I wasn't feeling very good and was worried about going back today.  I didn't sleep very much last night.  But today I am up and ready to go!

I just have to remember to slow down when eating.  I think that's why I haven't been feeling good.  It shouldn't be hard to do when I am at work.  I've had plenty of days when I had to nuke my lunch 3 & 4 times before I finally get to eat it.  I usually just grab it and bring it to my desk to eat and then get distracted by work.

T-man has football practice at 4 now so I can pick him up everyday after practice.  His first game is Thursday at 6 in Petoskey. He is on the JV team.  I am excited to watch him play football again.

Well I gotta go. I have to finisg getting ready.  Have a great day today!!

Sun, August 19, 2012

Sorry peeps. Not feeling good today.  No blogging right now. I will try later but the stupid charter keeps going out again.

Some of my favorite quotes

Laughter is the shock absorber that eases the blows of life.
Borrow money from a pessimist - they don't expect it back.
Change is the essence of life.  Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.
To reach a great height a person needs to have a great depth.
Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me.
Any man who knows all the answers most likely misunderstood the quesions.
Asmart person knows what to say, A wise person knows whether or not to say it.
The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.
Our 5 scenses are incomplete without the 6th - a sense of humor.
Always be flexible...that way you don't get bent out shape.
Whatever your past has been, your future is spotless.
We do not stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.
A man who says he has never told a lie, has just told one.
A friend is someone you can do nothing with, and enjoy it.
A hard thing about business is minding your own.
When you smile at someone, 9 times out of 10 the other person will smile back and you've made 2 people's day brighter and better.
Great minds discuss ideas, Average minds discuss events, Small minds discuss people.

saturday night

It's been a long crappy day.  My stomach is still yucky.  I feel hungry, I think.
I am hoping tomorrow will be better.  I want to get a lot of things done tomorrow! At least I got to hang out with T today.  Ok not really.  He pretty much stayed upstairs all day playing the games I bought him from the Selling Goods Facebook group.  Tay had to work today so I didn't see her either.  Plus she has the van, so no car to go anywhere.  He car is once again not running.  I think she needs an alternator.  Everytime she gets it jumped to get it started, as soon as it is shut off,
it doesn't start again.  Then it needs another jump.  So it's sitting in my yard while  we find someone who will take payments to fix it.

Stupid Charter wasn't working again either. Just got the phone and internet back.  I had to call them last weekend cause they were out for 2 days.  At least they gave me a credit for them.  Guess I will be calling again!  I tried earlier but both times the phone went out again!

Ok enough crabby talk, or type, for one day!

So glad I go back to work on Monday!  Let's try listing the positives instead of all this negativity!

I go back to work on Monday.
One and a half more weeks and I can eat scrammbled eggs and mashed potatoes!
I have lost like 25 pounds.  I really don't know for sure because I can't find a level spot in my house to put the scale!  It never says the same weight anywhere.
I'm getting negative again. I spelled scrambled wrong!  But I can't seem to click on the right spot on this tablet so I can fix it.  So just ignore it!

Now where was I?  Oh yes my list of positives:
Hmmm......
Ummmmmm
Did I say I get eggs and potatoes soon?

Sat, August 18, 2012

A late blog again.  Stpid Charter has been down most of todat.  Internet and phone.  It sounds like more thunder outside.  Will probably lose it again!  I have spent most of the day sleeping.  Really not feeling well today.  Everytime I try to eat, I feel sick.  Think I have been eating too fast.  Know its not because I ate too much.  I could only eat 1/3 of my soup.  Feeling sick to my stomach a lot today.  Think I might be dehydrated too.  I picked the wrong day to give Tay the van!  Could use some more SF popsicles.  Almost out!

I will have to call for a popsicle run!  Lol

I had planned on cleaning house today.  I really did want to!  Oh well, will work on it tomorrow.  I am getting some reading done today.  Reading the Hunger Games.  I wanted to finish it before I watch the movie.  The book is always better than the movie.

Well I know it's another short one for today, but really don't feel like typing anymore.  Have a great day.  See ya on the flip side!

Depression

Have you ever been depressed?   If you answered "No",  I think your lying to yourself.  Everyone gets depressed now and then.  There are many different levels of depression.  Most people just get sad or weepy for a day or two and then it goes away For some people, like me, it never goes away.  It stays in the background, waiting for that day that you forgot to take meds.  Waiting, so it can creep up when your not expecting it, and bring with it all of your doubts, your sadness, your anger, your pain, your self loathing.  There's no rhyme or reason to it.  It doesn't care if you were happy, excited, feeling good about youself.  It creeps up and covers you in all its negativity.  That is how it feels when you forget to take your meds, or when a bunch of negative things have happened that you haven't dealt with.

Next time someone you know says they are depressed, please don't assume that they can just turn it off.  That thinking good thoughts, remembering what  good life they have or that you don't think/feel that they have any reason to be depressed.  It isn't something you can justshake off.

I cover mine up with humor, I joke around, poke fun at myself and others but it is always in the background waiting to creep up and surround me. Waiting to drag me down and keep me there.

I didn't type all of this to make you feel bad, feel sorry for me or to bring you down.  I wanted to explain it so you could understand what it feels like.

Now lets all move on to happier thoughts!

Fri, August 17, 2012

TGIF!  I fell asleep early last nite and now I have been awake since 1:30!  Today I am taking it easy.  I was gone all day on Wednesday and it took its toll on me.  I slep almost all day yesterday.  I was all excited to watch T play football and then my lunch was my downfall. :(

Too much tomato soup again.  It made me feel sick.  So I don't think I will be eating it again, at least for a while.  I had a bitchy day yesterday, during my few waking moments.  I was feeling hungry.  I called my support person, Lisa, but really didn't want to hear what she had to say.  When you get the sleeve done, they pretty much cut the hunger out of you!  Today it didn't feel that way.  Damn TV commercials!  They made me hungry!  Well at least I "thought" I was hungry.  Its hard to only drink everything.  You really get an ache for some substance!  What I wouldn't do for a piece of lettuce!!  A green olive!  A piece of toast!

Oh well,  I try to think of other things, but it's not always easy to do.  Now I can weigh myself when I get frustrated.  Or eat a popsicle!  Ok so I just did both!  Today the scale said 273.  Woohoo a few pounds a day lost!

Time to try to sleep again.  Catch you on the flip side!

Thurs, august 16, 2012

Today we get to watch T play football!  They have a scrimmage at the practice field at 3:30 today!  Woohoo go Blue Devils!!

I forgot to tell you,  we bought a scale last nite.  It said, get this, 278.5!! Wow!  That means I lost another 4.5 pounds in the last 2 days!!  Of course we must remember that every scale is different, but.......YEAH!   It's happening!  It's a good thing too, cause I am seriosly tired of all the liquids!  You have no idea how badly you miss eating the simpliest things, like a piece of toast!  What I would give to be able to eat a piece of fruit!!  Course if I had ate more fruit years ago I might not be 278.5 pounds!!

Uh oh!  I hear thunder and rain!  Damn! We might not be watching football today after all.  Bummer. The boys are going to be dsappointed too!!

Well I have a few things to do.  Get back to you all later!

Wed, August 15 cont.

I had to start a new one.  I was trying to edit the firstpart because I typed "those of you who no me"  and wanted to change it to "those of you who know me"  but this stupid thing wouldn't let me get to that part to change it!   I do not have any patience for that tonite.

Anyhow, back to me!  (ha ha)

I was married to Terrance's father but it didn't work out.  That is a tale for another time.  Anyhow, I moved back home from Baltimore, MD in April of 97.  I moved back in with my parents with a 4 year old and a 4 month old!  I started working at the hospital in August of 97.  We lived with them for a year, then we moved back in with Terry after he got discharged from the Coast Guard, and then back in with them after it didn't work out with Terry, again.

So you see, I owe my parents alot.  They always took us in when we didn't have anywhere else to go.  

Now back to our regularly scheduled program.  After GFS I went to my parents, then after some discussion with my dad about their insurance, I was off to the hospital to pick up Tay from work.  Then back to my mom's because now WE are going shopping.  I had such a longgggg day of shopping today.  Aft Mom, Tay and I went, then Terrance and I went to Kmart.  By the time we got home it was like 7 pm!  I was so tired!  So I sat in my chair, FINALLY eating something, while T(errance,  I will be calling him T from now on, Terrance is a lot to type!)  swept and mopped the kitchen and living room while we listened to music.  It was a nice evening.  We listened to my favorite artist, Anita Baker, then some old, old songs
I found and did a lot of laughing!  Tay called so we got her involved too!  It was a really great evening.  I love my kids so much!  They are the best parts of me.

Well before I get all weepy, I'm going to say goodnite.  I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow.

Wed, August 15, 2012

Sorry I missed my update this morning.  I woke up late and had to run out of the house this morning.  I had to give Tay a ride to work for 9.  Then I wanted to run to GFS to pick up one of the mops that they use at the hospital.  I saw the one they were using there when I was in for my surgery and it worked great so I went to get one.  I have all bare floors so I thought it would work great at my house too!
So here I am at Gordon's just wanting a mop, yeah right!  Have you ever been able to go to a store for one thing and ONLY get that one thing?  Well yeah for you for anyone that said yes!  I walk in the door and head down the first aisle, which was my first mistake.  I mean, I only wanted a mop, why am I heading down a food aisle?  Needless to say, $73 later, I found myself heading to my parents house!  LOL


Oh well.  I did buy a few things for them.  You know there was a time (well lots of times)  when I would go shopping with my mom because she would always get stuff for the kids and I  Now a few years later the tables have turned.  Tay goes shopping with me because she knows I will buy her stuff!!  Now I buy things for my parents.  Don't get me wrong,  I certainly do not make big bucks or anything,  but my parents helped the kids and I whenever they could.  It's only right that I do the same thing for them now that they are on a fixed income.

Most of you who are reading this no me quite well, but for those of you who don't, I have been a single mother for 15 years.

Doctor appointment

Well my appointment went well.  I was 283.  So  I have lost 29 pounds since I left the hospital but I shouldn't be counting the extra weight I lost from the fluids and gas from the surgery.  So that means that I have lost 16 pounds.  Of course we could start counting fromwhen I started the whole process which would mean I have lost 32 pounds.  Geez!  What should I do?  Where do I start?

When I went back to work in December after being off work for 3 1/2 months because of my MS, I weighed 315 pounds.  That is when I restarted the whole process to get the surgery.  Ithink I should count that but I don't know.  Anyways,  I'm losing weight and that is all that matters!

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I have been up all nite long.  My poor Tay was all set to go back to work today, unfortunately the prescription she got yesterday has not agreed with her!  She has been sick all nite!  We have to get a new script tomorrow and a new return to work.  Now she can't work again.  Poor baby!

I am still feeling yucky myself.  I have that test at 9 am and then on to Dr Cipriano
after to find out how much weight I have lost and get my return to work slip.  I will be happy to go back to work.

Then I have to do some house cleaning.  Bailey sheds like crazy.  It drives me nuts!


Well I'm going to try to sleep, again!

Sick

Well it happened.  I ate too much.  I was having some tomato soup with a couple of crackers melted in it, and I ate too much.  I stopped as soon as I felt full but it wasn't fast enough.  Now I am lethargic, nauseated, getting a headache, my stomach hurts.  Yuck yuckyuck.  At first I thought it was my sugar again so I put a candy in my mouth to bring my sugar up but it didn't help.  Now I know it's because I ate too much.

Yuck!  I will work Very hard not to do that again!

Well I can't eat anything after midnite anyways so it should be easy to not eat for a while.  I have my swallow test in the morning.  It checks to make sure there aren't any leaks in my new "stomach".  Then I have my first post-op doctor appointment at 10.  I weighed myself at Dr O'Connor's when I took Tay to her appointment today.  It said 283!

Woooooohooooooo!  Its all worth it.  Even the sick feeling.  I hope you all have a great day tomorrow!  I'll keep you posted!

Monday, August 13, 2012

Woke up early today.  Feeling a little yucky.  I have to update this now cause my tablet isn't charging since the cord was chewed through!  Damn animals!  I have to splice it, again!   Good thing I know a little bit of this and that.  Jack of all trades, master of none.  Yeah, that describes me.  I have had so many different jobs in my life that I have learned all kinds of things!  Lol

I started working at 13 at Soo Theatre.  Wow that was a longggggg time ago!  Then when I was 18 I worked 4 different jobs,  8-12 at the Malcolm Building working on a grant for the school system,  12:30 - 5:00 at the motel that used to be where Walgreens is now (for the life of me I can't remember the name of it), 6 - 10 at the theatre and then 11 - 2:30 I babysat.  Of course I didn't always work all 4 jobs on the same day.  Then I moved to St. Ignace, to be on my own, course I lived with my sister for a while.

So many jobs, so many years have gone by.  After everything I have done in my life, the most important was becoming a Mom.  I have been blessed with two great kids!  They are both great people, loving, caring, smart.  They have blessed my life.  I love them both very much.  At the end of everyday,  I thank God for them.

I love you Taylor Elizabeth Pettett and Terrance Lee Fuller Jr.

I hope you all have a great day today.

No title just blogging

I didn't get any cleaning done but I did go to Walgreens to get Tay's prescriptions filled.  Hopefully they will make her feel better.  Walgreens has bottled water for $1.99 for 24 bottles and arm & hammer laundry soap, the "pods" that you just drop in the washer,  buy one get one free plus there is a coupon on them to try it for free.  So you buy one for $6.99 and get one free then get the $6.99 back in the mail!  Woohoo!!  Ain't nothing like free!

So I'm sitting in my chair yapping to Kelly (my best friend for the last 25 or so years).  It's great to taalk to her.  We just know each other so well.  We don't always agree on everything but that's what best friends are all about.  We don't have to agree on everything and still be friends.

Anyhow,  my doctor appointment is in 2 days!  Then I will get weighed again!  I have never been so excited to get weighed before.  I am also asking to go back to work next Monday.  Two and a half weeks is enough for me.  I don't want to keep sitting around the house.  I need to get back out there to my life.

Terrance has a scrimmage this Thursday against Gaylord at 3:30 at the football field.  I am looking forward to watching him play.  It has been awhile since he played football.  Well it's time to go get some more "food" in me.  I don't want to lose my hair!!

Sunday, August 12, 2012

No more "post-op day whatever"  I can't remember half the time anyways!  I woke up feeling good today too!!  I haven't had the pain med since Friday!  Of course, I still have to take the meds for my MS but at least I am off the one for the surgery.  I feel so good today that I think I'm gonna do some work around the house!!  This excites me because I really haven't been able to do much around here because of the MS and lets be realistic, because of my size too.  Terrance takes good care of me and does most of the work around here, so it will be nice to take care of stuff so he doesn't have too.

My poor Taylor is still so sick.  My brother-in-law Bill took her to the clinic yesterday and she has an upper respiratory infection.  Hopefully finally getting her medicine today (everything was closed yesterday) and getting plenty of rest will help her get better.  It's times like this that I hate that she lives on her own since I can't be there to help her.

Well it's time to drink some breakfast and get ready for the day!  Have a great day everyone!

My List of Things to Do When I'm Skinny

I figured I can start my list and then add to it as I think of things.  :)

 1) I can't wait to be skinny so I can be cold!  The hot flashes are killing me!
 2) Cross my legs - I haven't been able to cross my legs since I was in high school!
 3) Skinny Jeans  - Nah I'm kidding.  No one should wear skinny jeans... lol
 4) Long walks -  I use to be able to go for long walks a long long long time ago.
 5) Ride a Bike - I don't know if I will be able to even when I am skinny.  My balance is off
      because of the MS.
 6) Jogging - I aways wanted to be one of those skinny girls that jog.
 7) Wear a dress - I haven't been comfortable wearing a dress since I was 10!

    To be continued.... Time to relax and read my book, then fall asleep.  Can you think of anything I might want to add to my list?  Feel free to comment and leave me your thoughts. Nite all!
   

Random Thoughts

OMG  I just had the best lunch!  A half cup of tomato soup with some protein powfer mixed in and a cracker!!    I know it doesn't sound that great but when you've been eating only protein shakes and sugar free popsicles for last 10 days,  tomato soup is like your favorite thing at Dairy Queen!

I think it's time for a nap.  The stupid phone and internet has been going on and off all day and it's really pissing me off.  So I will add more to this later. Sorry.

Day # 10 Post-Op

I woke up today feeling pretty good.  I got lots of sleep yesterday, which helped.  According to Lisa I am supposed to sleep the same amount of time that I am awake so I can heal. Normally that wouldn't be a problem but for some reason I haven't been able to sleep as much as usual.   I am not sure if thats a good or bad thing.  Anyhow, I am up now.  My poor Tay called me this morning because she is so sick.  She worked lots of overtime last paycheck and it caught up to her.  Poor baby!  I told her to drink plenty of fluids and get lots of rest.  Hopefully she will feel better tomorrow.

I am so bummed today!  I wrote a great addition to my blog last night and then the stupid internet went down and I lost it.   Thise of you who are reading it should feel robbed.  It was some of my best work!!  :)

Oh yeah!  I forgot the best news from yesterday!  When we were at the clinic (was that yesterday? I don't remember now) whatever day we were at the clinic,  I weighed myself!  Now normally I would NEVER share how much I weigh,  do I add the T on weigh when saying weigh  NOT weight?  See how my mind wanders??

Anyhow....When I left the hospital I weighed 312 pounds, thanks to all of the IV fluids and gas from the surgery.  But, when I hopped on the scale at the clinic (and yes I really did HOP on it!) I weighed............(does anyone else hear a drum roll?).......288!!!

Holy Hanna that means I have lost 24 pounds since Aug 3!!  I am going to be so hot in no time!!  LOL

Woohoo!

Day # 9 Post-Op - Sleepy day

Sorry I missed yesterday.  I had a slight nervous breakdown.  It started out good and then went downhill from there.  I went to the Clinic with Taylor because she fell and hurt her ankle.  Then we went to pay some bills ( which puts anyone in a bad mood).  Penny's had pants for $20 so we went the and did some shopping for her and Terrance.  By the time we were done with that I was ready to go home!

I couldn't post this yesterday because stupid charter went down.  My phone and internet were both out until this morning.

Late Night

I'm sitting here in my usual spot, my recliner (which doubles as my bed), trying to get comfortable so I can go to sleep  It's just not happening.  I tried to watch NY Med that I taped but just couldn't.  They had a patient that died from a PE and it freaked me out.  I just had surgery a week ago.  What if I am feeling fine and then when I least expect it, BAMMM........PE.  The thought scares me and makes me cry.  I have two of the best kids in the world, what would they do without me?

I'm usually not Debbie Downer about this kind of stuff so it cost me off guard that I became so emotional about it.  Now, for those of you who know me, don't go getting all shocked that I don't think of myself as negative!  Yeah, I know it seems that way sometimes, but when you really think about it, it's not ME that's negative, it's just most aspects of my life that are negative!

I mean seriously, who else does this shit happen to?
Let me give you an example:

My ex-husband cheated on me with a woman named Melissa and they ended up having a child together (actually 2 now).  Sadly, 3 years or so before that my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with, yep you guessed it, a woman named Melissa!  Why, yes, they did have a kid together, oh yeah, actually 2!   See what I mean?

Needless to say,  NOT knowing a person named Melissa has been added to my list.  I have been adding to it for awhile now.  Every failed relationship helps me add to it.  Wow, is it getting to be a LONG list!!

Well I am glad that I decided to blog some more tonite because now I feel better!
Nite all!

Bariatric Surgery - Post- Op Day # 7

Today is # 7 post-op!  I woke up this morning feeling great!  I did 2 loads of laundry and had my daughter, Taylor, take me to the store to pick up a few things.  I still feel pretty damn good.  My next appointment is August 14 with Dr Cipriano.  I can't wait to go.  I am going to ask to go back to work.  I think I will heal much better if I am working.  I weighed my self at my mothers house today.  I know every scale is different and Lord knows my mothers scale is older than I am but....(does anyone else hear a drum roll or is it just me?)
when I left the hospital I weighed 312 but today on the old scale it said I weighed 282!!!

That's 30 pounds in one week!  That can't be right!?   Although that sounds GREAT, I am going to wait till I get weighed at the doctor's office before I jump up and down.  That's if I can jump and down.  My balance is off because of the MS so jumping up and down might just end up being sideways and down.  But I am hopeful so keep your fingers crossed for me.  I know I am!  Fingers, toes and anything else I can get to cross.  I would have said legs, but I haven't been able to cross my legs since Jr. High.  Just one more thing on my list of things I want to do when I get skinny.  I will have to list them out for you one day.  5The list keeps growing.  Well, enough mindless rambling for one day.

Beginning

In the beginning, God created the Heaven and the Earth............Then a long time later Carla came into the world.  First, let me introduce myself.  My name is Carla Jean Fuller.  I came into this world on July 8, 1970.  I am the third child out of four.  My parents were blessed with four girls.  Yep, you read it right, my poor father had all girls!  I had a somewhat  "normal dysfunctional" childhood.  I say it that way because lets be real here,  there's really no such thing as a normal upbringing.  I don't care who you are, where your from, or how much money you do or don't have.  Everyone has dysfunction in their family somewhere!

Let's jump forward a few years and get to where I am now.  We can come back to the early years another time.