Late Night

I'm sitting here in my usual spot, my recliner (which doubles as my bed), trying to get comfortable so I can go to sleep  It's just not happening.  I tried to watch NY Med that I taped but just couldn't.  They had a patient that died from a PE and it freaked me out.  I just had surgery a week ago.  What if I am feeling fine and then when I least expect it, BAMMM........PE.  The thought scares me and makes me cry.  I have two of the best kids in the world, what would they do without me?

I'm usually not Debbie Downer about this kind of stuff so it cost me off guard that I became so emotional about it.  Now, for those of you who know me, don't go getting all shocked that I don't think of myself as negative!  Yeah, I know it seems that way sometimes, but when you really think about it, it's not ME that's negative, it's just most aspects of my life that are negative!

I mean seriously, who else does this shit happen to?
Let me give you an example:

My ex-husband cheated on me with a woman named Melissa and they ended up having a child together (actually 2 now).  Sadly, 3 years or so before that my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with, yep you guessed it, a woman named Melissa!  Why, yes, they did have a kid together, oh yeah, actually 2!   See what I mean?

Needless to say,  NOT knowing a person named Melissa has been added to my list.  I have been adding to it for awhile now.  Every failed relationship helps me add to it.  Wow, is it getting to be a LONG list!!

Well I am glad that I decided to blog some more tonite because now I feel better!
Nite all!